As someone who's obsessed with Asain boys, (As in Jungkook only ), you'll probably only be reading blasain couples on my feed. So welcome to my delulu world, after all delulu is the selulu... And my story is kinda derived from the song, TWO YEARS, TOO LATE by Isaac Levi ....once you actually check out the song, you'd get it.

This is my first time writing a novel on an app, so please bear with me. This novel is completely fictional and based on my own ideas....although I have to say the female lead kinda embodies my character.

Here's a little peek on our male lead . The story will cover a bit of their high school days, but overall, it's on their current lives.

Ru Han (27, CEO), our male lead, is a complete genius in the business world....acquiring most of his fame and money from how he handles business. He disdains lazy people and HER..... to those who knew his past.....the mention of her name was never in the picture.

Marcela (24, Nurse ), our female lead on the other hand is a complete opposite, she appears gentle and pure on the outside but only those that sticked around would know her true nature, AN UNAPOLOGETIC LIAR...... Her father once said to her, "Your lies would kill one day."

WARNING

To all my sensitive readers, this is not your typical love story book....this will be dark and unforgiving, so feel free to always take a break when things get too heated, after all your mental health matters more.

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PROLOGUE

...HIS POV: The way they act irritates me, lazy poor people....it frightens me that I'm becoming her, the girl from that night was not the one I fell in love with or was my heart still stuck on the fact that she was my first love because she's just like any other money-worshiping woman. Cheap! Her last words to me from that night still disturb me. What does she mean I'm selfish ? Fuck! If only she could have just told me what she wanted, we wouldn't have ended up like that. Sometimes, I wonder if she thinks about me the way I do? I have the money and power she so desperately craved for now. Will she regret it?...

HER POV: Fuck virtues! Society binds women too much. A man can do this and that, but a woman can't? In my world, I'll always choose me first, even if it means hurting him because I simply can't afford to leave myself out there in the open when they are monsters out there waiting for me to just make one stupid move. Only when you go through what I went through would you understand that, in this world... Money is everything, and so is power.

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Please share and comment as much as you can. That was a little something. Hopefully, you're intrigued to read more......

21:00 pm, Beijing

..."Tsk, I must have been possessed to take this profession." I say to myself as I in a hundredth time tried giving Xuming medicine. Being a nurse in a physiatrist hospital had its pecks. The patients never truly knew what was good for them....

"Promise me that you'll play with me if I take the medicine." said Xuming with a (I'm trying to look cute ) face, poor man has been in here ever since, his family long abandoned him in this shitty place so I'm guessing I'm not the only pain in the neck in this fucked up world.

"Whether you take the medicine or not, it's up to you because at the end of the day, I still get paid while you end up in a casket or something. "

I smile brightly at Xuming, daring him to cry like he usually does. He reaches out to take the medicine and frowns at me, "You're bad, I don't wanna play with you anymore!" I take the cart to leave and look right back at him, "Man, like I give a fuck!" ......

"That's a bad word Missy...my mom says it's bad to swear especially to your friends "Says Xumings roommate, Jinxing. I roll my eyes at him in annoyance. "Is that what she told you before dumping you in this place?" He looks at me in amusement, " OMG, Missy, how'd you know that?"

I shake my head and turn to leave, almost bumping into Doctor Luo, who was probably ease dropping again. "Wow, Missy, your tactic for getting them to drink their medicine is really unique. " I sigh in resilience. Honestly, I could care less if they take their medicine or not. After all, that shit just messes up your head more.....they'll never get better. No one will. But still, their so cold loved ones still send them to this kind of place like there's a chance for them to soon walk out of here all sane and healthy.

Doctor Luo looks at me with concern, "What's wrong Missy, you look disturbed." I drag my cart to finally leave, "It's Marcela." I shout in response. Heck yeah, I was disturbed... anybody would if they worked here and specifically with Xuming and Jinxing ....those two were more than mentally ill for real.

I'm finally done for the day, I take a taxi for the first time in ages because I was not up to walking to the bus stop when it was about to rain. The taxi man eyes me in the review mirror and smirks, " Such a beautiful lady working at such a place? Are you sure you didn't get cheated to work in there." I smile brightly at him ," How sure are you that I work here, and not a patient who somehow managed to escape?" He laughs nervously and wipes his sweat away, " But you're wearing the uniform." I lean in further next to him, "Is your brain broken? Don't you watch movies? It's a disguise...you plonker learn."

The poor taxi driver scurries away as he drops me off. Traumatizing people was my way of letting nature know that, if I'm not going to have it easy, no one was either. I take the elevator upstairs to my apartment, counting the numbers as they go up. I bolt through right my apartment and into the shower.

My minds drift to all sorts of stuff, until my hand grazes the part I got his name tattooed on my body right above my breast to my shoulder. " Ru Han," I say softly....damn I really need to get this removed. Tell me why 16-year-old me thought it'd be cute and romantic to get your boyfriends name tattooed on your body?

As if that was not enough, my shower playlist skips to a song by Tyla, BACK TO YOU. Ouh hell no! I am not doing that.... Ru Han is my past, and we'll probably never meet again, right? He'll probably want to strangle me to death after what I did to him anyway.

08:00 am

I'm being awakened by a strange noise from my kitchen, I get up and take a hairdryer ready to maul whoever was in there. I take cautious steps towards the kitchen only to find my flatmate, Haru. "It's you , how are you here? What happened to your trip?" He jolts to me and embraces me in a deep hug, I let him because Haru would never hug me unless something was really bothering him.

Haru and I met back in college. Unlike every shitty person out there him and I actually got along probably because we're literally the same person, but different genders. He let's go of me and blurts it out with tears in his eyes, " He's getting married!" I bulge out my eyes in shock and lead him to the couch to sit." You mean Siyan? But I thought you two got along well?

Siyan is the CEO of Star Entertainment, where Haru was recruited to be part of a boy group called Golden. Haru was evidently gay and came out back in college. Unfortunately, Siyan never came out, and no one knew that he was gay or dating Haru.....well, except for me, of course.

Haru shows me a post on his phone announcing that Siyan was getting engaged to some actress from a rich family or something. I look at him and grab his shoulders, "fuck Siyan! He can go marry that boring actress....come on, I'll take you to a club where you can find many hot guys." I smile widely at him, waiting for his response, but he just stares back at me, letting himself fall on the couch.

"I'm guessing that's a yes?" He let's out a stifled moan, " I don't know, Missy..... I can't see myself being with another person right now." I get up pacing around, " Ok, then let's crash his engagement party and expose him.....he'll have no choice but to call it all off." Haru looks at me with annoyance, "Yeah, and after that, he'll end the both of us."

The elite , (22:00 pm)

I'm grinning at Haru as I hand our IDs to the security man. He rolls his eyes as I hook my arm in his.......annoyed that I dragged him along. As we walk to the bar area, I pat his hand, " My treat, you can even order a male model if you want, OK.....just forget about that jerk." Haru makes a disgusted face and finally smiles. We sit at the bar, and I order Daiquiris for the both of us, a mixture of light rum, lemon juice, and simple syrup.

Haru turns to me, "How are you, btw? Are the dreams worsening?" I freeze at his question and try to play it off by waving my hand when he takes it and looks at me dead in the eye." I'm serious Missy, these dreams are draining you....you need help Ok, you can't keep bottling it up. " I take a deep swing from my glass and excuse myself to the restroom with, " You're worrying too much.... I'm Ok, really."

I was not ok........I'm breathing heavily, I try not to think about him... the way he haunts me every time in my dreams. I tell myself that he's dead and will never hurt me again, but something tells me I'm wrong. Truth is, I don't know if I'll ever heal from what he did to me...... I try rinsing my face with cold running water to control my breathing, but it doesn't help. Shxt! I cuss out, was I going to have a panic attack in a club? I take out my phone to dial Haru, but I drop it as my vision starts going blurry.

I stumble out of the restroom into a hallway and try making my way back to Haru. "Ooohh, look what we have here?" I bump into a group of guys gazing up at me like hungry dogs....I try stilling myself to stand my ground....heck no was I going to let another man hurt me ever again , "Go away!" I shout. One of them licks his lips in a suggestive manner and reaches a hand out to me.

Before he could reach me, Haru appears and kicks his hand away.... They scurry away as he holds me in his arms, " You can't act tough all your life, Missy." As his last words sink in, my body finally gives in and passes out.