I've been thinking of him so badly lately.He has all the qualities I desire in a man: charm and charm.The traits of someone who was tall, dark, good-looking, caring, and a gentleman were all present.He was my ideal man, the man I had imagined.God-fearing man's qualities caused me to become crazy.This was my first time falling in love, but was it true love?

Mark, would it be possible to have a short conversation with you?

I took my first shot at it.Hezron, my closest friend, had observed my affection for the tall man who is part of his circle.I hadn't behaved so differently around other guys before, and it was apparent to her.My continual reference to him, even without a reason, caused her to be curious.She was determined to obtain the truth, and I had no alternative but to reveal myself.

If you have affection for him, then go for it, my darling.She said....

This boosted my confidence to approach him.I was apprehensive about starting a conversation with him.What if my dressing didn't suit him?What if my voice wasn't up to par?My mind was filled with several questions, and my hands became clammy.As I approached Mark that day, I felt as if my entire future was dependent on this one conversation.His eyes were so enthralling that every woman would want to have them.His eyes grabbed my attention, and his smile made me feel uneasy.I heard my soul certify that he was the one for me, and my heart skipped a beat.

Mark! I cried, my voice tremorous.

He noticed me and approached me, making me feel like I was reunited with my long lost love.

What's going on, Prexxie? He stated.

Oh my God! He knows my name! I jumped up and almost fell into his arms..

It's probable that he was left to ponder what was going on with that woman, and perhaps I was too, wondering what was really going on with me.Acting in that manner was something I had never done before.I felt embarrassed, I felt as if I had stomped too low.Girls are not accustomed to going after boys, but this was a new phenomenon.Did I truly act in accordance with my values?Was I content with the step I had taken...I had faith in a different approach, not in me trying to catch him.If only my circle knew that love would cause me to do this, they would not be proud of me.As a woman, I walked with pride, but I still wondered how I came to this point.People say love can be crazy, but I thought I was exceptional.What if Mark is displeased with you because you approached him?What if your irresponsible actions result in you losing a friend?My goal was to keep my circle intact, but I knew that telling them I was flirting with someone would mean the end for all of us.

As I walked through the streets, my heart and mind were in a battle.I knew in my mind that it was wrong for me to fall madly in love to the extent that I couldn't think clearly.My heart was cognizant of what it desired.I was unsure whether to follow my heart or my mind.I was ripe for a relationship and it seemed like I was being left out.My best friend Hezron had a gorgeous relationship with a man who had a great affection for her.I had the most admiration for the couple based on their conversations and interactions.Frequently, my best friend would incorporate him into our conversation, which only reinforced my sense of being left behind.I also aspired to be comfortable.To have a comfortable conversation about the person I was involved with.My inbox was full of suitors, not that I didn't have any.My heart rejected everything and chose to focus on someone who did not perceive me as a girlfriend.Perhaps he wasn't yet prepared.Despite having a number of high-quality men with all the attributes, it seemed like Mark was the only one who was able to shine.At times, I tried to give them my full attention, as some went above and beyond.Kim was a participant among them.He was a wealthy individual, possessing the most up-to-date iPhone and a car. Yes, money wasn't an obstacle for him.He procured flowers, arrived with a variety of snacks, and always contacted me on a daily basis.His efforts were futile as they only angered me and made me dislike him, not love him.I felt that he was solely trying to swindle me for money.My hatred towards Kim was unleashed by this.Not only Kim, but also my class representative, Alvin, was present.This individual put forth his best effort to finish all of my assignments.He signed my attendance and consistently ensured my seat was secured.Despite his efforts, I didn't acknowledge them.One man was the only person I recognized in my heart.I did make an effort to fall in love, and it wasn't because I didn't try.I made an effort to give an opportunity to a man who had been overly insistent.Sadly, it didn't last for more than a month or more than 2 weeks.His behavior became monotonous and his texts became a nuisance to me.He didn't commit any mistakes, but he made one by falling in love with the wrong woman.I was aware that he had feelings for me. I felt remorseful, yet there was no choice at hand.I developed a bitterness towards anyone who approached me and my heart sank whenever Mark was spotted with another woman.I desired complete solitude. I desired him to solely see me and not anyone else!I desired complete solitude. I wanted him to exclusively observe me, not anyone else!I desired complete solitude. I desired him to solely observe me, without any other person!