M-country, a place where our everyday lives was always like a rewind button for me, nothings change unless you do something and make things so complicated. Waking up is like living in a hell-like situation doing the same routine and playing some blaming games on me. Well, there's nothing I can do about it if I'm their favorite and all they see is me, not doing the right thing. At some point, I'm used to it, that's why I'm working hard just to get out of here.

I don't know why but, I'm trying my best to reach out the impossible, like be with my idols oh so whatever just to get out of this life I'm having. Me and my cousins also dream about making our own band and sing in front of millions of fans just like the popular ones.

Well that's just my imagination going wild, anyway, if that didn't work, I'm still working hard on my dance career even if I'll do back-up on some popstar, popular or not.

School is over, no dance practice, no club activities, no events, just lying here in my bed monitoring everything what my idols do in their living.

"Look at this, they don't have the right to say this mean words, I'm not a fan but who the hell are they to judge others just like that?". Bela said it angrily.

Bela is my cousin, she supports me on the things I like even if it is exaggerated, she's always there.

"Hey big sis, don't freak out." she said. "What am I? an insane person just will freak out on this kind of stuff? I'ts natural for a popular band to have anti-fans everywhere." I replied. "Not that, look at this viral news." Bela immediately give her phone to show the news about my favorite boyband planning to disband.

"NO WAY! THIS COULD NOT BE HAPPENING!" and I shouted.

My life feels it turns upside down that easy. Breakdowns, heartbreaks, all of my efforts had been thrown away and shattered into pieces. My dream of meeting them in person just ended like that. Its not a simple dream, it's impossible for an ordinary girl, living miles away from her idols for that time to happen. I called them "My Hope". My hope that can change my life into what I dreamed of. There's no impossible if you work hard for it, if you do it step by step even it takes years or a decade, if you're willing to do it, aim it and claim it. There's nothing wrong on reaching your dreams, just don't let others drag you down that easy. You'll face problems, its a common thing, take it as a challenge to make you stronger and to make you strive more on what you want to achieve. That's our life supposed to be.

The name is Ziya by the way, I'm turning 18 this year. I don't expect too much on my upcoming birthday due to financial problem that my family we're having. It's not a big deal, most teens exeperienced this kind of situation which they can do is to understand that we can't have everything that we wanted if you will not work hard for it. Let that day pass and wait again til next year for me to age.

I stop attending school for my younger brother to continue his, so I do online selling for my everyday needs which is not that bad. It's okay for me to stop for the sake of this family's satisfaction. LESS TALK LESS MISTAKE, just go with the flow and patience is all we need, and everything will be worth it. All this sacrifices I believe and I will not get tired to wait for my turn to come.

I'm a music lover. I love to play guitar, sing a few songs and do 2nd voices. Everything was uploaded at MVTube, you can upload your audio, not video so its okay. Nobody knows who you are, but they know what you can do. I meet a lot of friends here at MVTube but we barely met, some are from other country. We message each other a lot, for updates and new uploads. I didn't tell my parents about this because they will think that I'm slacking off, I save a lot of money from this even the money I gain from it is not that high because it depends on the subscribers and followers if they will give you points on your singing. I save money for me to continue school next year. Then this guy, at A-Country, I can call him maybe a friend, even we didn't meet. His name was Johnric, I don't know if he's telling the truth, but he is 2yrs-older than me. He loves to sing, but the thing I like most is that we're the same, he is a big fan of 3J's like me. He is a guy but a huge fan of a popular boyband. he is good at singing actually, maybe I became close friends to him because his singing, its 3J's style. Speaking of 3J's there still no updates or news about their plan to disband, but they have no existing or being a guest in any live show.

"Hey Ziya, someone's bashing you, she said you're a brat, who the hell are you to decide if 3J's want to continue or not? Such a drama queen, they don't even have a contribution in the idol industry." Johnric message me.

"What's wrong on what I have said? I'm just a fan trying to support them with all I've got even I'm this far at their country, she's the brat, she didn't even use her brain, just like what she said what can I do about it? Its their choice if they want to continue or not. All I want for them to know is they still have fans loving them so much and keep supporting them no matter what." I replied.

This is where I start meeting lots of different kind of people online, and I don't know if its a good thing or not.

"So hard to be the top 1 fan on your country, don't you think? You'll meet lots of top 10 fans, anti or not, in every country with different idols." Johnric told me this many times, he even warn me because anti-fans exist also in M-Country.

"Its fun actually, yes it's to risky but this what I want, I work hard to become the one on top among the top 10, even the benefits is just to be updated everyday in idol industry especially the one that you put your full support on, and I'm glad that I belong under 3J's." and yes that's one of my achievement, a very big achievement for my teen life.

In M-Country, every move, word and decision you make is an issue. Good or not, its a big issue. If you're gonna stay here, make sure you keep your plans a secret to yourself, you can only trust yourself and what you are capable of.

Moving on, "so all I can do now is to wait for an update. This exotic anti-fans? When will they stop?" This idol thing makes me drained so much, it keeps me excited everyday. I can't easily sleep with the reason of waiting on the upcoming issues on what will happen next, good or bad? I just hope that everything will be okay.

The next day...

*Ziya's phone rings*

"Yes?" *sleepy-head*

"Ziya wake up!" Johnric excitedly calling me.

"What happened? Why are you not asleep? Its already late there, and today's here is breakfast time, just go to sleep, I'm going back to sleep, gonna have my brunch later." I replied to him.

"Ziya! you got to see this! its about 3J's!" he replied immediately.

My body suddenly felt awake in a split sec..

"Where?"

*Most Viral In the Internet*

"Good news 3J's fans, your guys not gonna continue their plan to disband, they say, all their fans are there for them, they will not gonna leave them behind, they're fighting for hope. 'Our fans is our hope, we can't just leave them, after all we've been through, our fans is always there. They are the energy of our every shows, so we decide to continue with them together.' says Jev."

Besides there fans, there's a strong reason behind all of this.

"In addition, we stalk a person from the time our curiousity strikes. This girl, when she became the top of the 10 top fans on her country, she's always updated even we haven't seen her even once. She keeps the other fans strong in believing in us, she did not fail even once. Other top fans in other countries believes in her. We don't know what's in her, to make other top fans support her more for us not to stop." Jeck said.

After everything that I heard, my heart wants to explode or something because my worries are finally over.