I was in 11th grade when I saw him for the first time. I didn't like him that much the first time but when I got to know him I realized that "He was such a gentleman".

I got admission in 11th grade. Means I was a new student. No one talked to me on the first day because I am an introvert and I did not even try to talk to anyone.

The next day a girl came and started talking to me, I got confused, is she talking to me.

Our conversation started something like this

Hey what is your name?

I said I am Avantika.

Your name, she said barkha.

Then we talked a lot, then I asked who studies best in this class.

she said Amit.

I said okay.

That girl talked to me because her bench mate was absent. Then she started sitting with me daily.

After the lunch, we had a math class, the teacher came, and we all greeted the teacher. Mam started teaching. Then she was making all the students solve the problem.

There were some students who were solving the questions on the board.

Then mam called me, I still remember very well that Ma'am had given me an integration question and beside me Amit was also solving the question.

My 2nd day school and integration question.

After solving the question mam checked whether I had solved the question correctly or not

Mam told me correct, very good

She went to her seat without saying anything. Then Barkha said, there was Amit by your side

I said it OOO

I am a student of math + computer science.

Whenever we went to the computer lab, Amit used to sit in the system in front of me.

I heard people talking that Amit is very rude, he does not give his notes to anyone quickly, he only talks nicely to his friends.

I was scared because Amit was my project partner. I don't talk to anyone, if I get a partner like her then god bless me.

During December, Amit came to me during our free period and asked me if I was his partner. I said yes.

He said give me your WhatsApp number then we will discuss. I gave him my number

He messaged me at night,

Hey it's Amit.

I, too, replied Hii.

He said, look I have started front page work.

I said it is ok mam have sent the topic, I will make index and acknowledgement.

He said okay.

In school,

Amit came to me and said, Good morning

I also said good morning.

Should I sit on this bench?

I said, sit down sir will come.

He smiled and sat down.

Then Amit talked to me and asked which school did you study in.

I said, let's discuss the topic

He said okay.

Then we talked about the topic and the bell rang.

It was the lunch bell that had rung, Amit came and asked why are you having lunch alone?

I said that I don't have any friends, that's why

He said, from today onwards I will have lunch with you.I said ok.

Our project got completed. We became very good friends.

The teacher also praised us a lot.

The date of our annual examination has come, Both of us got busy in our studies.

We did not have time to talk to each other.

We all reach our last stage of school life.

Where we think that we should study and enjoy school life.

12th grade is such a time when we see all these phases – depressed, happy, ups and downs.

My 12th was also not very good, where Amit was 12th topper and I am a average student.

All the teachers' favourite is Amit and leastfavoritee it's me Avantika

I remember,

That Amit and I used to sit together and make notes. All the teachers tried to convince Amit not to stay with me. If he stays with me, it will have an effect on his studies.

But he doesn't listen to anyone.

19th December ,

One day our class teacher called me into the staff room and told me to stay away from Amit. That day the teacher said a lot of things to me in front of the whole teacher. She aid a lot of things about my character, about my studies.

The teacher said this line "You don't have to study or write anything, you will ruin Amit's result along with yourself"

I was feeling very demotivated.

We had a free period after lunch, Amit came and asked why she called you into the staff room?

I said, mind your own business.don't talk to me. Then I left from there.

I was feeling very bad after talking rudely to Amit.

After that day I started keeping distance from Amit.

24th December,

Amit came to me and asked why are you ignoring me? Tell me did I do something wrong ?

If you don't say anything, then how will I know?

I told him not to talk to me, you are not able to do your studies properly.

Then our pre-board exams started in which Amit had scored very low marks.

The teacher came to class in anger and started staring at me, and she was scolding Amit. When everybody was saying that stay away from this girl then you did not listen to me. See how bad your marks are.

Then the teacher started scolding me, I was trying to control my tears for a long time. Amit said ma'am, my marks did not come because of her.

I did not remember that topic, that's why. Mam Said that now you started talking rudely.

very good Avantika.

Amit said Mam she doesn't say anything, you can't say anything to her.

Mam expels Amit from the class

After mam's period I went to Amit and said sorry to him.

Amit said, why are you saying sorry, you have not done anything.

I said, it happened because of me, today ma'am scolds you so much.

He said you keep quiet and don't think too much

everything will be fine.

Then our board exams have started , we were not able to talk to each other.

The boards are over, he never messaged nor did I ever message.

Then I realized that I have a crush on this boy.

It has been four years since I passed 12th.I have no idea where he is right now.

he was there in my heart, he is there and he will remain there.

My love will never change.

If I ever meet Amit then I will definitely confess my love for him.

That is his wish, whether he likes me or not.