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"And finally he holds her in his arms and as he looks in her eyes and he tells how much he loves her".

woahhhhhhhhhh

aaaaa

uuuuuuu

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This is me Arya. Just an ordinary Indian girl. A girl next door as they say in the movies. My life is not very special. Everyday when I wake up I hope this would be a interesting day but everytime my day ends up just the same. Ooooh btw I am 15. I have to go to school everyday, bear with all the noisy people, study hard and come back to home to help mom with housework. I might seem like a complaining teenager to most people but my life is not that easy.

The day I was born my dad died. We only had mom, dad, my elder sister and me in family. So to support our family my mom did all kinds of odd jobs. But now she is a teacher. She is always busy so I have to help her with most household work. I don't mind doing it. It keeps me busy and it is a great way to not interact with people. I hate talking. If there was one one wish that God would fulfill for me I would ask him to not let people talk to me ever. Each and every time I talk I end up in a fight alone. No matter how hard to communicate it always has to end in a fight.

So I have stopped trying to communicate and get words out of my mouth.

uuuuggghhhh

The only thing that helps me get through all this and the only thing that makes me feel like I am normal is my intrest in korean culture. Everything related to south korean culture I love it.

Yes. What you think is right. I am a fangirl.

The biggest fan of webtoons, dramas, mangas, kpop.

I am not only talking about all that lovey dovey stuff which makes you want to want to leave everything and go to Korea all at once.

But my overall impression of their culture is very good.

But as you can see denying every fact of reality I want to believe in virtual world.

Ofcourse I am not normal.

But what makes me the most happy is when I have butterflies in my heart while reading those webtoons, while watching those OPPAS dance and sing with all their might.

And that is what matters right.

Every single person in my life who knows me has said these lines for sure at least once- Don't obsess over them. They are nothing. They will ruin your life. Face the reality.

I don't understand them. Why is it so important for them to make me love what they think is right. Why can't they just accept me.

Little did I know everything that mattered to me doesn't matters anymore.

I always fought with my family, friends and everyone around me for not understanding me.

I hated even talking to them.

I didn't know I would end up regretting everything.

My whole life would come to crumbles.

And the country, the place I wanted to go to so much would end up becoming my nightmare.

(listening to 🎵🎵🎵)

earphones on with full volume🎧🔊🔊

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oh my my my

oh my my my

you got me high so fast

na na na na

na na na na

oooh ooh oooh o o o

love is nothing stronger

ooh ooh ooh o o o

I am a ... .......... .....

//////🎵🎵🎵

Anya (Arya's sister) --" Arya I am telling you get down this minute. If i have to call you one more time i am kicking your a**."

{Arya still listening to music🎵}

Ohh my my my

oh my my my

na na na

Me listening to my favourite music without giving to fu** to whatever else was happening the world, it was something very normal. Ever since I became a fangirl my sister and I never had a peaceful conversation. Our conversations would start with how I should focus more on studies and helping mom with work and ended up with her complaining to mom nonstop about how irresponsible I was.

That day was no different. It was the 30th of December. I was very happy because my favourite kpop band had released a new song and I was vibing on the song like crazy. It was like a festival to me.

"Arya can't you listen to me. Are you deaf. What the hell is wrong with you.I have been shouting your name for literally an hour like crazy. Can't you once leave these ******** and focus on the real world."-- said my sister as she came barging into my room.

And as feisty and sensitive about my favourite people I was, I was not going to take her scoldings.

(arya takes the earphones off and stares at her sister)

Arya--"What the hell. Why are you shouting. Can't you see I am busy. Leave me alone. Get out of my room"

Anya--"Listen Its not like I like talking to you and roast my brains out. So give me a break. If only I had other option I would never come to you)

(arya annoyed)

*Arya--" What do you want. Just tell me and get out of here*".

Anya--"Mom said she forgot some important lecture notes at home and asked me to bring me to her but I have to prepare an important assignment so you have to go".

Arya--"Why should I do your work. Just do it yourselves. I will never do it."

Anya--"*Fine. If you won't do it then I am asking mom not to give you money to buy the latest album that you have been pestering her for like months***."

\(\*\*arya angry and scared\*\*\)

Arya--"**How dare you. Fine I'll do it. You manipulative witch. I was going to listen to the new song anyways. I'll do it while running the errand but in return to have to put a good word for me with mother."

*Anya--"fine***".

\(gets up and goes downstairs\)

(picks up the notes, puts the earphones back on)

\*\*leaves the house\*\*

\(after 5 min\)

\*\*enters house again\*\*

\(arya looking for something\)

Anya(comes down and looks at Arya still standing there looking for something)-- "You didn't go. Why are you still here. Mom is waiting for you."

(Arya picks up a black hoodie, looks at her sister and goes out without a word)

thud

\(door shuts\)

\*\*silence\*\*

I wish I had said something back then. If only I had said a last word to her I would not have regretted it later so much. Even if it was to fight with her I wish I had fought with her at that moment. I wish I had said a last goodbye.

\(still listening to music🎵\)

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oh my my my

na na na na

na na

oh my my my

... ... ....

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\(walking\)

**tap tap tap**..

I was completely lost in my world. I did not ever care about what was happening around me. Like always that day too, fully immersed in my music I was on my way to my mom. And then it happened. My whole life completely turned.

The house we live in used to be our grandparents house. After they passed away it was given to my dad. It was built in a secluded place, a little far from city because of my grandmother's poor health. To go to the city it almost took us half an hour.

I still can't forget that day, that moment. It still chills up my body to the amount that it becomes really hard to breathe.

Since mom needed her documents really fast so I was walking in a hurry too. I was walking in my own pace and then suddenly an old man approached me. He looked scared. He asked me if it was the way to the A colony. He said that he had been wandering here for some hours but can't find his way back home and asked me for help.

I told him the way back to A colony but old man seemed really scared. His voice was trembling. He said that he went that way too but couldn't reach there. Since there was no one there to help I couldn't refuse him. I decided to drop off old grandpa at A colony and then take a taxi to the city.

The old man seemed very gentle. He tried to talk to me but as per my habits I decided not to indulge too much in other's affairs and kept quiet. After some time he stopped asking questions too. I was still listening to songs via earphones and the old man was walking behind me.

After at least 10 minutes I felt like a little weird. I turned back to check on grandpa but he was not there. I freaked out. Different kind of thoughts kept on coming in my mind. I thought maybe he fainted somewhere, maybe he could not walk as quickly as me and I lost him. Maybe he is in danger. I ran back quickly to look for him but couldn't find him. I was shouting on top of my lungs calling for him but there was no response. I started crying. I didn't knew what to do.

Suddenly my phone rang. It was mom on the phone. I picked up the phone but couldn't bring myself to say hello. I shut my mouth with my hands and tried to control myself. I couldn't let mom know what is happening. She asked if I was on my way to her and I said yes and then cut the call. She called again. But tears wouldn't stop rolling down my cheeks and at last I didn't pick up the call.

Suddenly a voice came from behind. It was the same trembling voice as before. I could recognize it. It was grandpa. I was relieved. I called his name out loud from excitement and as I the turned my head back towards him I realized someone was blocking my face. I couldn't breathe.I took me a good ten seconds to realize what was happening. I struggled to release myself from his grasp but my head was spinning. I could barely keep my eyes open. And then I fainted.

I could hear the rustling sounds, I could feel him touching my face. I could feel people gathering around me but I was so helpless.

My music was still playing on phone. I realized all the sounds fainting away. I realized I had been caged.