Lucas

"chubby kitty"

"chubby kitty"

I open my eyes and feel safe when i saw my room. I look at my watch. Its three in the morning. i wake up and reach my water bottle and drink.

Its been a long time since i dream about my childhood. I thought i will never remember about that name again.

i was fat when i was a kid. Nobody used to care. But this one particular kid keep yelling at me and keep bullying me. He poke on my cheek, belly and keep calling me chubby kitty. He took away mr duck and Miss sippi, my penguin. Thats my favorite toys. I remember crying and ask him to give it back to me.

That person name is Max. I depise that name so much that i hate everyone named Max.

I'm glad he move away in elementry school. but why now?

I'm different than when i was a kid. I'm not fat anymore. I learn karate so i can kick those who bullies me. I'm not a coward anymore.

With that on my mind, i go back to sleep.

***

Lucas

"White swan", Tam call me when i enter my class.

"don't call me that", i sat beside him, " i dont like to be associated with swan".

Tam smile, " your fans call you that".

"i dunno why they call me swan", i put my bag and give Tam a stern look, " you my best friend, you know me better"

Tam smile and open his book, "okay. even teacher call you white swan. why can't i call you white swan too!?"

"oh shut up"

"Lucas!!", class president call me and give me a note, " this from Mr. Erick. He wants you to go to his office now"

Mr. Erick is our homeroom teacher.

"why?", i ask.

"i dunno",

I take a deep breath and walk to teacher office.

This is all boys high school. I choose this school because it near to my house. Some boys greet me on the hallway and whisper 'white swan'.

I dunno when it started but people call me white swan. Maybe because my white pale skin or skinny body or.. i just don't know. There's even a fans club that dedicated for me. I don't even know why.

When i arrive at the office, Mr. Erick not there. Sitting in his chair is a boy with black shirt and black chinos. He have this aura of 'dont mess with me' and seem strong.

He look at me for a while and smile.

"where Mr. Erick?", i ask politely.

"principal"

i nodd. The conversation end there.

"White swan!!", i look at Mr. Erick at the door, "boy you too. Come here"

I follow the order and go near Mr. Erick, followed by this new student, i think.

"Lucas, i need you to show this new transfer student the dormitory. I have urgent things to do" Mr. Erick look at me and point at big bag, " he just arive from Italy. He will stay at the dormitory for a while"

"what room?", i ask.

" your room",

"what!??", i protest, " this is too sudden. Not that i oppose it. But.."

"we lack room okay", Mr. Erick pat me on the shoulder, " please."

I sigh and look at the new transfer student, " okay, just follow me"

The dormitory is another reason why i want to go to this school. It took us ten minutes walk from school.

"okay, this is our room. You can put your bag at the cupboard"

He follow my order silently.

"so your name Lucas?", he smile to me.

"yes", i smile back.

" Lucas!? are you go to Sun kindergarten?" he ask.

"yup"

"white swan?",

I feel embarased, " dont call me that. Just Lucas will be fine".

He chukle.

"I dunno who start it but i just dont like the name. It feel weak".

"dont you remember me?",

"you go to Sun kindergarten when you a kid? ", i feel excited, " wow, its nice to know we go to the same kindergarten"

He smile back, "Dont you remember me, chubby kitty, i am Max"

I feel like i struck by lightning

Lucas

"you what?!", i just can't believe my ears.

I remember Max, and now he become my room mate. thats unbelieveable.

"you remember me?", he chuckle, " i am glad"

" How can i not remember you!!! you took away miss sippi, call me fat and all. are you proud with what you done to me?".

"wow, you do still remember me". Max clap his hand.

"I warn you, if you bully me again, i will fight you".

just a second, his eye seem sad and he smirk back, " let see about that"

I dash back to school and think all things that might be happend. How if Max try to bully me again? Will i have to fight him back? what if i lost? I dunno if he can fight or not. what should i do? What if he try to kill me when i fall a sleep?

That day i beg Mr. Erick to do something.

" you will be alright", Mr. Erick ensure me, " bullying is forbiden in this school. if he do that, he will be expel"

That dont make me feel easy. that day i feel exhausted from overthinking. I go back to dormitory, took a deep breath and open the door.

I saw him reading a book and just staring me.

" you back", he said.

I put my bag and books at my cupboard and and start unbotton my shirt. I will just ignore him. yup, that what will i do. I just pretend he not exsist.

I feel like someone staring me so intens.

" what!?",

"do that on the bathroom. dont do it here",

"or what"

he took a deep breath, " you so defenseless"

I snap, " this is my room okay. i can do whatever i want in this room. you have no rights to tell me things!"

he smile, put his book and stare at me, "i'll enjoy the view then".

I feel my cheeck blush.

"arrrgh!!!". i pick my clothes and go to bathroom.

I can hear he say something about being idiot.

oh my god!! I just can't stand it!!!

***

The next day everyone in the school is really excited about the new transfer student. On the first day of his school, people aproach him and he smile a lot. He seem happy and no wonder people start saying good things about him. why i know you say? He transfered to my class and people just get so excited.

"you look so tired", Tam look at me with concern.

i smile back and hug Tam, " what should i do? what should i do? this white swan can't sleep at all".

"awww, poor lil white swan", Tam pat my head, " poor you".

i put my head on Tam shoulder and suprise because Max suddenly standing infront of me, look at me whith his eyes.

i challange those eyes, " what!?"

" idiot", he whisper in my ears and sit in his chair.

If only Tam not holding me back, i am about to crush all that smile in his face.

Lucas

"Do you know swan is the most beautiful creature but not aproachable by strangers? Since they will attack and protect their territory?", Tam suddenly show me a book about swan.

"why you show me this?", i ask.

"in case you don't know, you were nick named as 'white swan'. so i wonder you might have this trait".

"Tam. i am not a swan, okay. i already tell them to stop calling me white swan. its embarrasing. why we talk about swan anyway. its math now, math!",

Math is my favorite subject. There's no nonsense in math.

"okay", Tam put aside his swan book.

I try to concentrate on what teacher saying when Max suddenly look at me and smile. He sit infront of me in class.

"white swan", he chuckle.

In case you don't know, Mr. Erick make me become a guide for Max. He say, it is bad that Max move to our class in the middle of semester. And since we know each other ( i already tell Mr. Erick that we were enemies), i should put aside childish feelings and move foward to the future.

So today, special for Max i will show him around school. I already can't sleep this past few days because of him. Not that he annoys me. It just that i can't stand him.

We don't talk much in dormitory. He doesn't initiate conversation and sometime he just bussy with his phone.

but why i can't sleep? that because deep down i still see him as a threat. Like sleeping with lion. I dunno when he will bites me.

Class end like usual and i drag him on hallway. I show him around school, the club room, tennis, badminton, hall, and anything that might useful to him in the future.

People eager to know him because he put that nice aproachable aura. They exchange phone numbers and invite him to club activities.

It's so different back then. He always put his scary face, not smiling and angry all the time.

"people changes", that what Tam said when i told him.

Does people can change? for the better? i keep thingking that when suddenly i saw three student smoking.

"hey!! its forbiden to smoke at school", i aproach them.

Its upper class. Their ties is blue.

"mind your business", the big one say and screening me.

"i will report to teachers!!", i threaten.

They put their cigarete away and suddenly a fist after my face.

I block that fist and glare, "i might be smaller than you guys but i am better at fighting"

Thats true and in no minute they were down to the groud. i feel so proud at myself.

When i turn around i see Max standing there and watching me.

" what!?",

"white swan is not suppose to fight"

"i'm not weak anymore"

"i can see that",

I walk pass him and notice he seem very angry for some reason.