Hi I'm Che ha .If you compared me when was 10 year old self, you would say I'm still the same person.

I lost a very special person in my life and she changed her state of mind when we're junior high school because she only want a friend who are her same standard not a devotion friend

She's my childhood friend she was cold and have the sweetest smile and kind other think that she's always frown because she's look like a lot in her mother

By the way she's Jena she's from a wealthy family that can provide all her needed now and we are both same age, we are neighbor so that's why I can play near in my house with her and she have a very strict mother and brother but before that when we are friends

I used to spend my money on her when she doesn't have money, I buy her food what she she likes as long as I can afford it.

We also dance kpop(Young generation kpop) together with her older sister, playing together, buying our favorite fruits and when a day of halloween we have to put make up on to scared people who is pacing by in the road

It's so fun to watch people how they are so much scared because of halloween costume.

I have so many good memories of her so I didn't regret in my whole life that I met her because in my eyes she's still the same person but not same habit

but it's ok I know that people are can change but I can't believe that she was belong to those people who are ready to forget everything memories just to choose her standard friend, she can't imagine how I care in our friendship but she's the one who want to break it so it's very useless for me to keep it and I'm the only one who fight for it. It's so hurt for me because I'm not ready yet to lost a friend who are the one who make my day enjoyable and i treat her like sister.

I remember her when we are elementary she's so worried because I got an injury in my toes so i just told her that" it's ok it's not even hurts" but now when we meet again everyday without chatting or smile etc.That's the most painful that I ever feel in my whole life it's like double pain.

No matter how i adjust she still the someone I treasured a lot and unforgettable friend until I die because she's part of my challenges in life, and I couldn't forget her because no matter how hard I tried it's still useles in the last, I even create a new circle of friends but nothing happen.

I'm still very thankful to her that being part of my life even though it's so painful to see her with new circle of friends but I'm happy what makes makes her happy. the one who make me feel how true friend heartbreak, the girl who start my trust issues of friend the promise that she made is none of us would ever think would happen.

I realized there's a term that there's no kindness in this world without purpose and the reality is happiness does not last forever.

I'm the only one who can't started to try and move on and forget her,yes it's true that I could not. But for her it's so easy just to maintain her high reputation,but it's still ok even its so hurt for me because I'm not a stone who can't feel anything I'm a soft hearted with many deadly weakness and one day she will realizedd she lost a diamond while playing with worthless stone.

As I sit and think about me and you and about the things we used to do We used to talk on and on everyday never used to bother what the others say.

We spent hours talking on the phone whenever we felt we were alone We did favors and helped each other now it seems you've chosen another jena.

You said our friendship is never ending But it seems it needs some mending. Never thought of losing a best friend I hate to know that it is the end.

Thought you would be with me here by my side through all the years jena. Now you have left me torn apart with tears in my eyes and a broken heart. Once looked like our friendship would last but now it looks like a thing of the past you also aware of that because

you're the one who start. You hate me being your friends because I got a poor background but I just don't wanna say properly goodbye because it's still hurt to me Maybe you think of me is make you mad.

You walk close to me in school but you just pass me by and you pretend that our friendship was a lie but your wrong jena

I would be not care to our friendship if I know that I just easily forget you if that is true but I see it how much we cares with each other I even wipe the tears of my eyesand try to forget all your lies, I Never knew this is how it would end to our good friendship.

Losing you is my fragility my friend, I hope we go back how we are before even in just a dream that we are both happy, i want to hear your voice in my dream that i wanted to feel.

howwwwwwww should i move on, maybe I can move on but I cannot forget you

"The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not get over the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again but you will never be the same. Nor should you be the same nor would you want to."

ELISA BETH KÜB LER-ROSS

AND DAVID KESSLER,

ON GRIEF AND GRIEVING

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