For over years, I’ve been living with agony and misery. I never asked for to be like this. But, it happened just like that. I’m not sure how to put all puzzle onto once. It’s such an enigma to myself. Deep inside of the void, i couldn’t reach anything in darkness. Even I always lost my mind. Anyway, due to my unconscious nature depression. I became addicted to be like this gloomy. I just hope, that day was never came. The day where I lost my life in second.

15 years ago, I had a massive accident were led me to complicated condition. I went surgery likewise. As the result, I lost both legs and the rest are highly wounded. I cried, my mind was somewhere to be found. I lost control for over months. Until then, i regained myself gradually. It was such, a downhill journey to me. To be honest, i just really hope to die since that day. So it left me nothing but scars.

importantly, due to my disable condition. Seems like my parents are having issues to deal with. Father, begun his resent towards me bluntly. Mother, keep pushing me backwards and sometimes ignore whenever i ask for helps. And brother, putting his all hates whenever we met. And it looks like we are no longer family. And yes. Not after my bedrest around to six month later, they abandoned me as they throw me out from family. I’m all alone. None could take me in. With only wheelchair, cross all the streets to find some good place to live. Yet, at the end of the day. I continue myself as homeless person. Sleep under rain, under cold wind, of course, wilderness.

Everything changed after i found a place i could say a better life. That day, i was unsure about things I saw. A place where they accept all kind of people wholeheartedly. Which as soon later, it became my household for years. I feel loved, i feel excited, and feel happy indefinitely. It fees like i’m back on my track. Although. . . these people are completely not blood related at all. I’m grateful no matter what they had done to me. It was more than enough.

As i lived in better environment, i have my own job, my own expenses. I could live way easier and happily. It may seems simple and nothing special about. But honestly, this’s the life i could enjoy for the rest of my life. I started to love myself more than it was. Considering with condition up ahead, why don’t I just focus on myself then? Right? Well, it’s life anyway. By the way, i’m an employee in a Tiffany’s Flower bucket shop. It’s just small florals business. But hey. The owner really loving and caring much more than i expected.

His name is Yoon Ik-Jo. Well, i usually call him Jo. He didn’t even bother of whatever I called him. I’m sure he’s fine with it since he never complained along these years. Of course, he’s much older than me. So i believe it’s reasons why he had more mature than i am. I guess.

I also have another work mate here. Choi Ye-Na and Lee Seung-Soo. They both are the same. We never had problem on getting close and be friend. Ye-Na always helped me during either opening or closing while Seung-Soo helped me moved a bucket to one another. It’s really handy when my hands are full and lack of ability to do multitasking. Indeed I always have this kind of feeling which is guilty. I made them to do my job while I had trouble with. It’s unfair for me cause what i did wasn’t good and right. Though… i don’t know how to handle things sometime. I wish i could have my both legs back.

Anyway, enough with my story. Speaking of the devil, I heard someone will drop by the shop a bit later. And i found that the person is quite important. Hmm.. who are they though? I never heard such thing before. Could it be president? Sigh. Who am I kidding. But seriously, it made me curious. Why Ye-Na or even Seung-Soo looks nervous. They both usually looks casually fine and leaving no sweats. But as for today, it’s quite obvious that they’re not ready at all. Should i ask?

”Hey, Ye-Na.” I shouted her name at least.

”Yeah, what’s up?” She immediately turned her hed to me.

”i was wondering. If this was proper to ask but.. are you okay? You look unusual.” She pause at the moment before she respond. As she winks her both eyes, she begin to talk.

”Ah, am i too obvious to you?”

”well, sort of. Would you tell me why?”

”It’s completely nothing. Nonetheless..”

”yes?” She made another pause. This time, she lopks miserable and seems not too good with it. Perhaps, i shouldn’t ask this anyway.

“Remember what i told you, right? We’re going to welcome huge guest in hour. I don’t think i’m good enough to handle. I’m afraid if I accidentally get myself in trouble. Or even cause them in some inappropriate situation.” A long reason and rant after of what she actually felt. Well.. i mean.. i do understand why she looks so down. But, isn’t she too pessimistic?

“No need to push yourself. I believe, everything is going to be alright. Just gives them your best shot. Mistakes are inevitable. Though, it’ll be our evaluation for better experience in further services.” I had to convince her that things will be okay without stressing too much. I know, this looks like a one tine oppoturnity. As long as we doing fine, the rest are secured. Probably.

“Yeah.. yeah. You’re right. I need to cooldown myself.” She sighed hard as she relief.

”no need to be hurry. We still got plenty of time to prepare.” Hope she feels way better after what i said. Or at least convinced.

Following minutes, she looks more comfortable and relaxed. I’m sure she’s doing good. She just had kind of panic or anxiety attack in short period. Though, i’m glad she doing alright in small amount to overcomes those feeling. Huge commend honestly. Says, huge guest, eh? Probably a chief? A government? A president? Yet, again. Who am i kidding. . .

We continue with the preparation along with our team. We manage to cover all things and provide more suit scenario so it won’t or at least preventing further or unexpected outcome. We barely to experience any kind of that. But. . . We just being anticipated.

“Byun-ah\~” Seung-Soo straight call me from the desk.

”mhmm, yes?”

“Would you mind to switch up place with me?”

“Now? Or later?” He make himself to stand up and leave his seat. Then, slowly walks towards me.

“Well, Mr. Han wouldn’t guarantee anything if i was on the desk. So, I offered to you instead.” He sigh on his own behalf. I think, i do understand. He must be disappointed. Due to. Mr. Han’s decision. Well. . . I couldn’t say no either anyway.

“If it’s that the case, I’m in.” He responds with smile. He drag me to the desk carefully and make sure I’m comfortable enough. I thanked him as he leaves to do something else. That’s Seung-Soo for you. He incredibly cares and gentle. I wonder why is he still available? Is he ain’t got any interest in relationship or anything? That’s questionable but also unnecessary to say. Well, it’s his life, not mine.

Another 45 minutes past, and everything seems ready and well-prepared. Seung-Soo, Ye-Na, Mr. Han, also Mr. Yoon looks neat and clean. They’re really giving their best. I shouldn’t left behind. I’m going to give my best shot likewise.

not too long after everyone’s ready, a car has arrived in front of the shop. A massive and luxurious car parked. A few people came out from the car, as they open the back door. They stand still as the Alpha Male comes out from the car. Wearing neat formal black suit. Nice and tall body, glossy hair, a scent that i can tell already. He must be a important person. It must be.

The body guard opens and makes the way for their boss. As he step in, we welcome him wholeheartedly.

“It’s honor, please welcome, Mr. Lee! We’re happy to have you here!” Mr. Yoon greets the guy as he bow down.

“Much appreciated. Thank you.” He responds.

”Mr. Lee, before we go to the main event. I would like to introduce my newest and recents team lf this shop.” As Mr. Yoon tries to inform us, The guy seems already look at me like he wanted to kill me. Oh lord, please save me at most.

“Here, we have Chou Ye-Na as the administrative assistant of our shop. And we have Lee Seung-Soo as the QC head chief. Han Jun-Oh as the Manager, and the person on the desk, which Mr. Lee sees by now. Kang Byun-Hoon, He’s the Customer Service and support chief.” I never know that my position would be that long. What I remember, Mr. Yoon recruited me for Normal Employee with no kind position offered. That’s a bit surprising but okay.

“Nice to meet you all. My Name Lee Soo-Jung. CEO leader of SJ company.” He smiles and nods as he introduces himself to us. We also nods and bows as he talks. Speaking of which, Lee Soo-Jung. . . I heard the name before. But where it was though?

”to continue our business, shall we move to the private room, Mr. Lee?”

“Sure.” They both continue to plans out the work business partnership or whatsoever i don’t actually know. But, seeing them together. It’s like i’m watching Dramas. A real life drama? Probably. But anyway.

After they went to the room, the situations change back to where it was. Both Seung-Soo and Ye-Na sighed continuously hard. Cause I literally can heard them. I bet they really nervous. Why do i feel fine and nothing happen somehow? Like, i used to be? Though, i never had such memories to greet someone who has never been around and they were crazy rich. Or am i? I mean. . . Lee Soo-Jung. The name that ring the bell. Somewhere i should remember, but i can’t. Now i feel like De-Javu. Seriously.

As i back with the organizing the bucket, one of the guard approach me and bow before he makes interaction. That’s so polite to be honest.

“Greetings, Mr. Kang.”

“Ah, hello. Nice to meet you. How may i help you?”

”i would like to request a help but. . .” He pauses himself as he looks around before he continue. That’s odd. Why he would do that anyway?

“Please, I’m begging to not tell anyone.”

”ah. . . Yes, yes. I Promise.”

”Thank you, Mr. Kang.”

“Don’t mention it.” Seriously, you know, and to be honest. I would scared and piss myself out if this was about life and death. I don’t want to be kidnapped!

“My wedding anniversary is coming soon. And. . . I would like to have some bouquets arrangement.” I literally cannot believe of what I heard by now. I mean, what?

“A— Ah! Y— Yes! That’s great! Congratulations!” With an awkward laugh on my face.

”So, would you like to help me with that? I’ll pay for everything.” Sometimes, this kind of situation happens to me often. And not always be my best option to accept those request. Besides, i never had such opportunity to give a shot. So i think, i’ll try myself on this one.

“I’m not sure, but i’m glad to help.”

”Thank you so much, Mr. Kang!” With his excitement emotion, i can see how happy he is. This should be my most project then. I wouldn’t let anything get down before i try. Let’s do this—

a door suddenly opened and hears Mr. Yoon shouted for help.

”GUARDS!! HELP OUT!!” It’s so loud so anyone inside the shop are pointing at Mr. Yoon.

”MR. LEE SUDENLY PASSED OUT AND HE WON’T MOVED A SINGLE BIT!!” It shocked me honestly. It’s only like ten minutes passed, but situations 10 times change drastically. A total passed out? It must be more than 10 minutes!

All the guards making their way to reach his boss and takes him to nearby hospital immediately. As soon as they leave the shop, Mr. Yoon and Mr. Han follow up to the hospital. And left us to clean the mess. It’s completely sudden and put us in puzzle. How did this happen? What the cause? Why the timeout was too short? And importantly, what they do inside?

For this day, both expected and the unexpected happens. What we anticipate and bar-off any kind of engagement. As the result, we don’t place as the plan goes by. And for that, we put us in lots of trouble.

As i expected. Every single things that happened in short period, it must leaves something unusual and hanging. Even at the first place, i’ve questioned me and wondered. Why Mr. Lee could passed out under 10 minutes while the suspect object was currently observed that it’ll or at least took 30 minutes to react as the result. And it is odd when Mr. Han shouted out. His expression was way more than something. Yet, i couldn’t send one time prejudice though. Due to own presumption. But anyway, it is not my act to continue to investigate the whole scene. I’m just. . . Worried. If this case led us to worst scenario.

It’s 6 PM and we haven’t got chance to get further news from hospital. Both Mr. Yoon and Mr. Han hardly to reach. Ye-Na seems uncomfortable as ever, but seeing Seung-Soo do his thing to comfort her. I must admit that he could do better than me. So i leave her to him. Meanwhile, i’m thinking of the upcoming request from that guard. What’s his name again? I believe he didn’t mention his name though. But, he gave me the whole requests list. It’s cute. But it’s more than just a bouquet. More likely a whole shop.

I guess, this is how a person fall in love and celebrate their special day. Leaving works early to see their love one. Do whatever it takes for making them happy. Gives all the sake of life. It’s truly amazing. I completely commend and admire how he appreciate his partner. In his busy hour, even he got chance out to leave the house for long period. He still got time to spare for his partner. How, lovely. I really hope can do this with everything I have.

“Byun.” Seung-Soo suddenly made a call to me.

”Yes? Something’s up?”

”Not really, but. What’s up with the guy?”

”Which guy?” I mean, who is he imply to? A guy?

“The person who came straight at you.”

”ah, that guy. Well, honestly i don’t know his name though. But, he just made a massive order.”

”Massive orders? May you elaborate?”

”It’s anniversary celebration. Perhaps, their wedding I believe? But, the bouquet he requested is quite something to me.” For over years i worked in here. Probably, this is my first time to accepting kind of massive request. It’s not that I ain’t capable of.

“Impressive! I’ll lend my hands for you.” With smiles, he looked at me gently.

“Thanks a lot, Seung-Soo. Though, i don’t know if its work out.”

”grab your worries away. You sure able to get things done. You’re not alone, okay?” The way he comforted me and convinced that everything is going to be okay, is the sweetest moment he always ever got had to. Honestly, i’m flattered. How a nice guy keep themselves single?! Anyway, not my business.

As we continue awaits and run the day until close. The rain finally fall down and bit by bit later, it become heavy. I could see the storm coming thru as well. The winds pretty visible and i can tell how the outside was. It remind me where i was before. This rain, the storm, the coldness that always bother me. No place to hide. Even how my skin received so much pain afterwards. Its. . . Hard to think. I really don’t want to think about it anymore.

Speaking of raining, I do remember too. Back then, a car stopped by infront of me. I was shivering in rain and coldness. Then, a guy came out from the car to give his umbrella to me. He even put me his warmth coat. I don’t remember his face though. I also didn’t got chance to ask his name. But. . . For some reason. After seeing Mr. Lee by today. I feel like. . . Those dah are coming back. I mean, the day that someone gave me a huge goods to live with. I vaguely recall that day. Yet, to be true. Mr. Lee is something.

I don’t want to mistakenly assume that guy on that day was Mr. Lee. Cause, I’ll embarrass myself of course, duh. Anyway. This rain probably gonna remain soon. Hoping it’ll gone on my time off. It’s a pain to get myself in wet. I can’t run, i can’t even get myself faster when comes to rain.

“Byun-ah.”

”hmm? oh, you seems okay now.”

”Haha, yeah probably. Thanks to Seung-Soo.” She awkwardly agreed as she look at me with little chuckles

“What’s up? You want to say something?”

”About today. . .”

”Yeah? Why?”

”I think, i should be the one in charge of suspect.” Eh? What does she imply for? Suspect? Suspect for what?

“Pardon me? What do you mean by suspect?”

”err. . .” She fidget her hands as she looks down.

”Ye-Na? Are you—“

”I was the one whi put drugs on the water.” I gasped at the time she confessed. She didn’t even flinch oft a single time. Nonetheless, she did said that bluntly without thinking furthermore.

“What are you—“

”We know that the result. It should have take more than ten minutes. . . But put it in large amount lf drugs. So it’ll react faster than it should be.” She continue to explain of her behalf action.

I— uh. . . I have nothing to say. I’m completely speechless. The way she acted in, and she didn’t even being so dramatic. She just stood there and confessing that she’s the culprit. She was all over the place on this case. But, why? Why she ever do that? Is she got deep down massive inside ego? Or hidden seek for revenge? But, she never told me anything of this! How is she— she’s not that i know. Choi Ye-Na is a person who care her surround. She once told me that, she want to make people smile. But, why now?

“Ye-Na, I—“

”I know. Your expression tells everything.” Isn’t that obvious?

”I’ll do self report by tomorrow. So, this is my last meeting with you, and Seung-Soo.” She begin to show her smile.

“I might be bad, but for the whole thing that i share with you guys, are truly my greatest and greatest heart.” She continue as she holds onto my hands. I can see her tears begin to roll down on her face. I can feel her hands are shaking too. This probably way more difficult than she expected. What i can do is, accepting her comfort and being understanding of what she done.

Seung-Soo and I begin to gather around and make final group hugs with Ye-Na. I know, either me nor Him are totally confused by her statement. But, we understand why she finally said the truth. We are people who live above lies and truth. And nor of em’ are able to keep for in long time. So yeah, i should understand either way. I’m proud and salute of her braveness. It is still a crime, but to call out herself out, and spill out her crime scene is the most honest way to get life out. Better or not, it’s depend how she runs it. May my prayers and bless, are with her. We may apart for now, though I hope she will become a better person in future.

Its new day, and new fresh morning. I’ve had enough sleep thanks to Seung-Soo who took me home safely last night. Although. . . I’ve lost someone who i admired and cherished. Choi Ye-Na. She probably get herself ready for facing reality. I hope either police nor the court would give some best option of what she had done. For everything what will happen, she deserve and it is what it is. Hopes any goodluck and may she continue her life well. That’s my last wishes. Anyway, back to the track.

So today, I have upcoming projects and deadlines. Which is should bound one bouquet from RT Company and Hong-Joon’s Online order. Well, hopefully it could be done by today. Otherwise, I could mess everything on the massive one. I mean, no! I won’t let that happen! Sigh, seriously, it giving such bad vibes when reaching something that i shouldn’t think of. Yet, Seung-Soo gives me his hands to finish the work. Oh my, speaking of employee. Do we have new recruits soon? I mean, last night. Mr. Yoon back by himself and return with such guilt expression. I know it must be hard for him. What about Mr. Han though? I don’t see he was tagged along.

Mr. Yoon extremely disappointed and upset that night. He never thought Ye-Na could ended like this. He was thinking about the Shop reputation, but she promises it will not affect the shop and the people inside. Mr. Yoon seems convinced anyway. Of course, i think, every single person will get disappointed to their beloved employee when they suddenly made such huge mess or sending themself in trouble. So i do understand why Mr. Yoon are completely out of his mind. Hope he didn’t go crazy in addition. It’d be more problematic if he does.

Anyway, so as the brand new day. I would start everything fresh and slowly. I know, it mau cause more than I expected but hey. At least i’m doing on my own. I’ve been living well than ever. It’s feel like i’m back to the track and sure enough. Yet. . . Missing my family wasn’t bad at all. I miss when they were together. The one who always wanted to see me everyday. Share memories, even take journey together. But i think, past is in the past now. I would love to have it back, yet again. I think, i should pretty more thankful of what I’ve become now. Sure did.

“Oh, i’m running a bit late.” It’s already 7:30 AM. I usually take public transport. However, seems I’m a bit late today, i’m going to grab some call for taxi. I can’t help myself get it though, but I’m sure i’ll get some help to.

After i put my things to bag, I immediately leave the apartment, and head to the lobby as soon as possible. The lift didn’t take too long, as it arrive on my floor, I tap on lobby destination.

After hitting on lobby, the crowd suddenly appears and surrounded by people. I mean, what just actually happened? Why do i have so many people on lobby?! Is there a problem? I can’t see anything but these body! Perhaps i should try make an excuse so people could give me a way out of here. Cause duh, i’m already this late!

As i sneakily to get the way, people keep getting hudled one after another which made me harder tk get the pathway. I try to shout out, but they won’t listen to me. WHAT’S WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE!?!? CAN YOU GUYS JUST GO—

Everyone suddenly made a pause and silence has begin. People starring at the door as i see. They look mesmerize but somehow more likely hipnotized. What’s going on now? People seriously need to het their act back. It’s confusing.

As i being confused and wondered how to get out, some guys making a huge way as they make the people to move out. They made them to step back for some reason. It indeed opens the way where i was now. Like, uh, okay? This is odd and unusual. And seems like i was a king? This is completely weird. Even theh starred at me. What’s with this atmosphere?! Sigh, since i have the way, i should immediately go—

“This way.” A guy approach me with gentle care. He pushes me heading to the car that parked right infront of the lobby. I couldn’t see clearly his face but, he looked distinguished? Or sort of. Importantly, he really being careful on the way he drag me though. As soon he dragged me along, another guy opens the door, continue to help me to get into the car. They wearing glasses for reason. Why do i keep getting this feeling though. Am i getting kidnap?

Not only being more than confused, I literally no idea whose car is this and where the heck am i taken to. Following second later, the guy who dragged me gets into the car as he drive the car. He step into the gas slowly, and leaves my residence and the crowds.

Sigh, first of all. I’m gratefully for getting out of that situation where i couldn’t even understand how kt happens. Second of all, i’m totally being kidnap now. He still wearing that glass and didn’t say anything further! Only ‘This way’ yeah i mean, what way for now!? Ugh, i swear. Wait, should i use my phone now? I mean. . . In silence.

“No need to call police. I ain’t bad guy.” He slips his words as he smiles. erk, how creepy this guy.

”T- Then. . . Where did you take me to?”

”Your workplace, of course.” Hang on, my work? But, how did he know where I was work at? Is he a stalker? Isn’t the same thing as kidnapper? Wait, why do i feel i’m in my nightmare now?

“You, didn’t recognize me?” Suddenly, he jumped into conclusions.

”Pardon me?”

”Is it hard to remember who i was?”

”I’m sorry, but i don’t really know you.” He responds with little crack and chuckles. What’s wrong with that? Did he actually my acquaintance? But how i can’t remember at all?

“I think, i should take this off.” As he drive the car, be finally puts down the glass. The way he look at me after, I feel like i just drop my jawhead like i was about to lose it. It’s Mr. Lee.

“M- M- M- Mr. Lee! I- I’m Sorry!!” I quickly to apologize to him. THIS IS MORE THAN I ANTICIPATED! THIS DAY WAS SUCH A DOOM!

“Haha! It’s alright. I understand you. You must be confused.”

”B-But, Mr. Lee’s sudden appearance is quite unusual. And you seems avoiding the public.”

”always do.”

”May i ask why?” He made a little pause before he answer me. Also, he make the car a little on slow pace.

“My private life won’t affect my work life. So being professional is important. Also image.” He added a wink on me. Well. . . That’s how confident he is to say? I mean. . . Whatever.

“I see. Mr. Lee, about yesterday.” I was about to mention yesterday accident. But he immediately cuts the words.

”It’s alright. It won’t be a whole scene.” Ah, i guess he really manage it till the end. Perhaps, he already know the culprit. He must knows everything as he looks. If it’s the best to slide it, i guess that’s what the best for.

“I’m sorry.” He tilt his heads as he look at me.

”Why you sorry for?”

”If i able to prevent the whole situation, you won’t be—“

”You seems pretty worried about me, aren’t you?” First of all, how confident he is to say that?! I was about to say that I could prevent all the things that may caused troubles! I never have anything or thought of worrying about him on the first place! How dare him!!

“Th- That’s also a part.” I can’t lie. My lips does recat by it own. How fool i am.

”Haha, I’m alright. Though, It made me out of work for few days.”

”Oh? Are you injured somewhere?”

”It’s not. But rehabilitation.” Right. He needs that at most. After consuming drugs that he didn’t know. He must put on bedrest for days or even weeks. Cause what i know is, it may lead him on worst case if there any kind of medical insurance and check up for business purposes. So I could understand why. Yet, i still feel bad for that. He’s important persom in this country. His company is of the most successful business ever. Sigh, i really hope i could rewind the time.

“Cheer up. Don’t give me frowns.” He chuckles as he see me frowing while thinking the bad. I mean, he really pay attention to how expressive i am.

”Hope you get better soon, Mr. Lee.” With smiles, he quickly respond me with a nod and back to the track.

After some quite awhile on the road, the clock already ticks on the time where i should get to work. Luckily, even i had so much troubles this morning. With Mr. Lee huge helps, i could arrive at my work safely and punctually. He parked right infront of the store and get to help me out. He carry me like princess as i look at him, i can tell he really that handsome. Wait. . . What did i just say?!?!?!?

“I’ll pick you up on closing hour. Don’t get anywhere, okay?” Eh? What’s with the sudden? He didn’t have to pick me as he take me here!

“A- Ah no! Mr. Lee i’m fine! This is more than enough and i can’t thank you yet!”

”You can save your thank you. I’ll see you later okay.” He insisted at the end. He winked at me again, and soom gets back to the car. He waves at me as he leaves soon. Sigh, I’m really, really, and extremely confused today. It’s just in morning. Anyway, let’s get going.

After I get my fingerprints and set myself in clothes, I head back door was open and it’s Seung-Soo. He looks terrible though. Both of his shirt and pants are torns. Is he even okay?

“Seung-Soo? What happen to you?”

”I just got into fight with the gangter.”

“God lord, are you really okay?! Did they hit you? Did you call the police?”

”it settled. A random bunch of kids appeared and helped me right away.” Sigh, i’m so glad to hear that. If the kids weren’t there, Seung-Soo might be passed out there and nowhere to be found. How fortunate. Really.

He changes his clothes and I can see his bruise on wrist and lower thigh. I bet it hurts, but i can’t say loudly. I feel sad whenever someone got through lot or fight. It’s like watching someone suffering without shouting for a help. Speaking of suffer, i should be the one who called as dump. I was the one who struggled anyway.

We leaves the staff room and we continue to prepare while open the store. I started to arrange the bouquet and flowers. While Seung-Soo cleaning the dust out with sweep the floors. We always spare anything that we could do. As long as a team work, it should done easier and faster.

It minutes later, the door bell ringing, as we greets them welcome, we have our first customer comes in. When i look at them, it is not other than the guh who requested the whole bouquet by yesterday. He came with massive smile and good vibes.