There goes my heart beating again .

And while I am running I see Him .

There he was with his blonde messy hair organizing products in the shelfs listening to music in his earphones not minding anyone but his business .

He was like a golden bright light sparkling and I immidiatly felt drowned to him .

His innocent and pure energy was like a magnet pulling me towards him unlike his fierce appearance .

I don't even know his name but I can call him ...My Light now .

A flashback ✨

The past couple of months has been chaotic for me and my family.

They moved to a whole other state leaving me behind to take care of my little siblings until they are done with selling our current house affairs .

My mom just came back and seeing her enter the house it feels like suddenly a mountain is removed from my shoulders and the light suddenly appeared out of nowhere to lighten up our house that seemed gloomy with her absence and me taking responsibility of everything here including taking care of my siblings and the house and everything in between including my studies.

Finally I feel like breathing a heavy sigh away and smiling bright .

But it didn't last long until she told us it was our last night to spend here in this house and state and that we had to officially all move tomorrow because the seller is going to take over this house that now became his .

I felt lightening striking me , electricity all over my body ! How am I supposed to move now while I still study in a university here and it would be impossible to transfer to another in the middle of semester...but I don't even want to move now ! My friends are here ,all job opportunities are here , everything is just easier here , we've spent our entire lives here since the minute we were born , how does he and Father expect us to suddenly leave our lives behind and just move to a whole different state that's so far away from here and start from scratch!!

I thought with her coming here she would finally settle with us and give us more time but she had already made the deal and strikes me with another shock ! Great !

It was the next morning already a gloomy day , seems like the sun just didn't want to brighten up the day and leave as it was .

I finished packing with my sister and brother and left with My mom and Dad in our little red car In a long road trip that took about two hours because of the traffic that seemed to be only as we begun to enter that new city that's waiting for us to settle in it , and I already hate it more that I did before , seems like a lot of struggle for me from now to travel back and forth to study and meet friends or do any business.

As we are moving inside the city more I could tell it's a place of a country side , it had many beautiful views from the sides indeed, but the more we entered to where we live I could see from the people's life styles , selling , clothing, the way they approach each other is very different from the capital where we used to live and I wasn't wrong with my first impression, because later on when we arrived to our New House and settled, I noticed everything was so different from my life yesterday, a new chapter was opening but not a one that I wanted nor chose .

I can already tell that this is going to be everything but a home for me ...just a house .

It has already been two months here , and I still refuse to believe this is where I was thrown to live .

The people stare at me weirdly if I speak in the transportation noticing my different accent than theirs since they are the locals , and they look at me outside as if I am an extraterrestrial and follow me around complimenting my looks as if they never seen a woman before , which is also a fact I heard around here that women don't get out often nor do they dress in a modern way like women from the capital like me .

The days passed by and I hated this place even more I started to go to my aunt's house closer to where I used to live in the capital right after I'm done with my university and come in the weekends my house with my family, because being there was draining and just made feel like I'm losing myself since I'm not the kind of girl who would just sit home and do nothing with her life , I felt useless since I'm 21 years old now and I did nothing with my life since coming there .

I continued my life like that between my aunt's house in the capital and coming in the weekends to spend them with my family.

And two years passed just like that , until the week that I didn't have to study everyday in it came and it was the middle of it , a Tuesday, I finished my studies and from university I went to my house to my family in the country side .

They picked me from the bus station and we went together grocery shopping for the month to that supermarket my 20 years old brother works at which was huge .

I was picking in between the shelf's boxes of powder chocolate and hiding them between my arms carrying them around , and still looking everywhere with my parents , and after they got all they need i forgot to get myself my favorite cerials that my brother brings , and I had only a few minutes to find before my dad pays for everything and leave , so I went running between the shellfs  and still carrying the chocolate powder boxes in my arms , running like a crazy and asking the employees there where could I find but none of them gave me a proper answer or they would just not know  .

flashback ends ✨

And while I am running I see Him .

There he was with his blonde messy hair organizing products in the shellfs .

He was like a golden bright light sparkling and I immidiatly felt drowned to him .

His innocent and pure energy was like a magnet pulling me towards him unlike his fierce appearance .

I don't even know his name but I can call him ...My Light now .

It was the first time I felt an instant connection with a stranger that fast , especially a blondy .

not to be racist or whatsoever , but I was never into blondes , I could tell for sure that something about this blonde right here made me go all in for him .

He was tall and his body looked in a healthy shape while he was moving like a sculpture. except that his eyes looked a bit tired when I sneaked a glance at him .

I stood there frozen watching him and almost forgot about the purpose I was running in between the shelf's like a crazy minutes ago.

I took a few steps forward towards him and the moment our eyes locked I swear I could tell he felt it too , that sudden pull , I never believed in it but now I do , it's not love at first sight , it a click between two souls that the moment it clicks you're just locked together and into eachother.

it's like time froze and stopped right there while we were captivated about whatever cosmic game gate was pulling at us , at least I was ...I was too stunned to speak a word .

Despite that I was frozen , I gathered some energy and courage to speak , then asked him so fast almost rapping , about where can I find that spicific cereal , I tried describing it with my rapping speed and for a moment I swear he looked confused like a little blonde cat, but then gave me a proper answer and almost took me there if I didn't hurry away from him . his presence was so distracting I couldn't stand it , it made me scared for the first time ..it was threatening to the walls I made sure I built so strong around my heart .

I thanked him and grabbed it so fast , then ran towards the cashier to my father and mother.

I put what I had in hands there so they can pay and went to put them inside the plastic bags and held them . And when I say " them" ! I mean almost all the groceries .

I could feel his gaze following me but I couldn't look at him . I was too nervous and stunned to even peek a boo.

and the moment we were out the supermarket I saw him push out the doors so close from me running one of the cariages and put it along with the other ones looking at me .

I was nervous like never before and confused .

And on my way back home my parents were chatting while all I was thinking about is about what was That that happened inside !!

Was I just effected by my favorite book or was he the character out of the book and met me in real life ?! I swear I never felt that way before .

but I decided to ignore that urge to see him again and as soon as we reached home I took the groceries I got for myself and went to my room , changed to my pajamas and watched a movie and slept .

The days passed by , I was back to aunt's house studying and going back to my family house in the weekends.

It's been three weeks since my last intense event that almost Awoken my heart strings .

It was Thursday the end of the week , I arrived to my family house all exhausted.

it was dinner time, I ate and went to my room and lay on my bed playing with my phone , and saw that casting call story on my IG so I decided to send them all the details and informations they need about me in case they chose me since i'm so into acting and camera and stuff .

I didn't take it seriously , so I just sent them and opened a movie to watch ... moments after I see a strange number calling, I answered the call and it was a girl from the casting call management, she confirmed with me wether it was me who sent them my details and pictures and if I can make it tomorrow to the shooting place which was 30 minutes away from my parents house . So I agreed and confirmed my coming.

I woke up at 8:15 am , and didn't wear any makeup since the girl told me to come bareface and they will do my makeup for the scenes I'm gonna be in and my role .

I wore black long pants and my black and white t-shirt and white shoes and held my black jacket in my hands and went out.

It was my first time at that bus station , waiting for the buses that takes to that area she told me about .

While I was listening to some songs and rhyming with them , I saw a familiar body jumping out the bus , messing with his blonde hair casually not caring about his surrounding, wearing a black leather jacket and black pants and walking away .

It was him , I'm so sure it was the same guy from last time in the supermarket, but I couldn't really tell despite the way he made me feel if it really was him since he was walking away , and as if he heard me he turned my way when he was crossing the road and that's when his eyes kind of pined on me and I froze for a second until I looked down at my phone pretending to check it just to hide my nervousness.

Why the hell am I nervous , he's just a guy ! Ugh ..but not any guy apparently for him to be able to move my stone heart's strings like that . He shook my strong walls as an earthquake hitting me all of a sudden .

A BUS came and I swear without asking much where it takes I just took it so I can run from his eyes ...and that was the worst thing I could do on a Friday morning, which was not to ask where the destination it takes because  it was indeed a different one from mine . I had to change to another bus in the middle of nowhere to get to my distinction and then thanks god the girl had sent me a chauffeur to drive me to the place where we'll be shooting my scenes with other strangers I've never met .

I finished so late at night and was exhausted since it was the second day of my period , it was indeed a long day but I loved it , I enjoy unexpected experiences and I got to meet some gorgeous two beautiful girls and foreign french people.

As soon as we were done a chauffeur sent me back home since it was so dark to go back on my own in that unfamiliar place .

As soon as I arrived I fell into a deep sleep After that .