Ukiyo [u-key-yo]

-Japanese-

(n.) living in the moment, detached of the bothers of life.

"The Floating World"

Transient World…

My life is like a tunnel. As I go straight inside, there are no lights. I feel so empty as darkness covers my whole eyes. Just imagine how happy I am from my past years of living. Everything is fine and I have an enthusiastic feeling of how grateful I am with my family. They create lovely memories and support me from what I love but not just them, my friends love me too.

But…

Why am I here?

That made me question myself.

Why do I have to live in this world?

The memories remain fresh but as I travel myself for years, here I am now as an eighteen-year-old girl. I look young yet I have damage. Back then, in my anatomies, looking myself at the mirror,

Am I the only one seeing this?

Am I the only one who noticed that I’m in pain?

Oh yes, I am.

Everybody turns their backs away from me, leaving me behind with my broken appearance and broken soul. I have wounds all over me and even my heart beats slow and bleeding. No matter how many times I have to fix myself, it is still me.

Is the world turn upside down?

I just blink once and everything went to a disaster. My life begins to crumble.

I’m hopeless.

I plan myself to leave and never return to them, never chase them and beg for apology again. I have no confidence and I don’t have a right to speak in front of them. It hurts my ego that I have to bury myself alive.

The devil is within them.

But then, I stop…

There is no such thing as an endless tunnel. Light is gleaming from afar and I feel like it’s telling me to go on.

The oddness starts…

Meowing cat makes me startle and turns into a man. How fascinating it is and I fell in love as he holds my hand, walking together with me. The cat stays by my side and always telling me,

“Everything is okay, Aubrey”

AUTHOR'S NOTE: Good day, readers! An amateur author, sharing thoughts and imaginations in my stories. I hope you will support them and soon, I will create more and more in here. I sometimes got lazy that I don't want to work for another chapter and sometimes got bored and write another chapter and couldn't even stop me from typing, making it so long.

Anyways, aside from this story, please support my other stories:

- The Oddball Series: Love Synapses

- The Twisted Alice and her Bunny Butler ( JULY 1, 2020 REWRITTEN VERSION )

As you can see (If you check my novels), the settings is in high school hehe

NOT YET AIRING:

- Masquerade (Bangtan Series #1)

- Honey Boy

Please!!! Don't plagiarize someone's works. Plagiarism is a crime. Thank you!!!

Lots of things comes in my way that I cannot do it. I can’t even get rid of them one by one. Do I deserve this kind of treatment? Do I have to suffer from pain? Do I have carry a lot of burden? 18-year old me is lonely yet, in a state of devastation. I don’t know why I did that. I don’t know why they started throwing me hatred. Is it because of an accident?

James is my one and only boyfriend. A caring boyfriend that my friends threw me a playful envious face to me. My family welcomed him to my family. He even goes to our family trips.

Did I make a wrong turn?

A party…

A grand party that everyone almost forgot about themselves. Feeling nausea and even unconscious themselves, got drag by guys and miracles happens. You know what I mean, One-night stand.

James and I stayed each other. We did some chats and he even offered me a drink. A drink made my sight shake and it was getting blurry. From what I remembered back then, Jake began to carry me from his arms with his worried face.

Jake offered me a drink with spike.

Hours of having a sleep, I woke up feeling heavy in my head but at the same time, I felt the whole blanket touching my body. I’m full ***** and I don’t know why but I got scared. As I stood up, getting out of the bed, covering myself with a blanket, I stared at the blood.

“Hey, you’re awake”

I’m in Jake’s bedroom and this freaking happens to me.

Why do guys after making love with someone is like they are happy? Seeing Jake with a topless look and a victory smile plastered on his face, I felt disgusted of myself.

“W-why…” I got lost in words and couldn’t handle my situation but to shut my mouth right away.

“What? Why bother ask? Aubrey, you enjoy it”

“N-no… What happened?”

“We just… You know, we make love”

Reminiscing the things happened during the party, I them covered my mouth. Jake who towards me and gave me a light hug, resting his chin at the top of my head.

“What’s the matter?” It was quietly his fault from the whole time that I suffered too much. I bit my lower lip and pushed me away from me.

“You offer me a spiked drink, didn’t you?” Jake’s hands raised in the air and shrugged.

“No. I didn’t know! Why do you think that? Look, I’m a good boyfriend and you know me well, Aubrey”

“If you’re a good boyfriend then, why did this thing happen to us? I thought you respect my decision! Yes, I know you Jake. For the past few months, you suddenly changed and kept forcing me to do this and FINALLY! You took away something that is very restricted and pure! Imagining putting something inside of me, I feel disgusted, Jake!” He wanted to hold my hands but, I quickly flicked him to avoid.

“I didn’t mean to make you feel like that! You see, we are three years in a relationship and there is no happening between us!”

“How desperate you are! I know you know already that I hate guys chasing a girl just for s*x! Now\, are you satisfied stealing my v*rg*nity away?!” I exclaimed

“Aubrey, I am not like those kind of guys you think. I will take responsibility to the things happening to us—”

“Take responsibility or take advantage of me?”

“What?”

My emotions are not stable that I couldn’t made any plan, couldn’t even control myself but to slap him. A pain he felt to his face is not equivalent to the pain he gave me. Jake’s cheek turned light red and stared at me with a shocking expression. I was at the verge of crying that I couldn’t say my words properly. Tears rolled as I ranged my anger in front of him.

“I knew about Candice and you” I knew it. He didn’t even talk back to me. He stared at me, feeling caught at his wrong actions.

“I already knew there is something between you two. Is it during Candice’s birthday party?”

“Aubrey—”

“You cheated on me! You cheated! You cheated on me, Jake!” I pushed him with my remaining energy and punched his chest countlessly. He didn’t even stop me from doing.

“You ARE desperate! You couldn’t get what you want from me that you went to Candice and payed her for having a euphoric feeling! Did youenjoy it?! Did you have fun, huh?! Is she good in bed?! That alpha b*tch is my friend!”

“Aubrey… She just… forced me to do that!”

“Force?! I don’t believe you! Is that really a man’s nature? Agreeing someone to **** **** just to achieve his sexual desire?!” I stopped pushing him and slowly walked, picking up my clothes on the floor. I put them on and slightly combing my hair. I didn’t even bother look at his face.

A face of betrayal…

“We’re done, Jake.”

(A/N: Hey Readers!! Hmmm... I hope you enjoy my story/ies. To tell you, I have my own fighting spirit and a hobby to create stories. I just want to apologize for creating some cliche moments and sorry for the grammatical errors and stuff.

I hope you will give me likes and comments, tell me your thoughts about my stories and yeah, have a good day!)

Good Day, reader!!!

Saenggu, an amateur author here!

I will update Transient World in an unscheduled way. I apologize for that and don't worry. The reason is that I don't have any idea of this story, only the introduction so, stay still.

Anyways, I have story and mind to read it, ay?

NOVELS:

    - Love Synapses (The Oddball Series #1)

    - The Twisted Alice and Her Bunny Butler (Rewritten) SOON!!! 07-01-20

UPCOMING BUT STAY TUNED!!!!

    - Masquerade (Bangtan Series #1)

    - Honey Boy

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UPDATED: JUNE 21, 2020 (SUNDAY)