***You can never imagine the jittery feeling you get when you about to get married if you haven't gotten married yourself. Right now I felt like a thousand butterflies has made their home in my belly and I can't help but smile.

"Calm down Monica, you are acting nervous as f.u.c.k." My friend and chief bridesmaid said, she was stating the obvious actually.

"That's because I'm nervous stupid. Today I'll be made Mrs Monica Louis can you imagine that" I squealed.

I was facing the mirror and she was at my back doing my hair over again since I kind of scattered it In a rush of adrenaline.

"He is not that cute really I don't know why you like him." she mumbled. I could see her rolling her eyes from behind me and I couldn't help the snort that came out.

She has been against me marrying Jose simply because he isn't as rich as my other suitors. But he is better looking than all of them put together. And that is an exaggeration but I'm in love. Women in love tend to exaggerate a lot. That's why they say one person who doesn't take advice is a woman in love.

"I Dont care If he is cripple or blind I Dont care if he has one eyes or whatever " I stopped and turned around to look at her. "All that I care about is him, I love him and I just can't stop loving him. I don't want to stop loving him. He is my everything my life and soon he will be my husband. " I squealed. She didn't look happy at what I said but I didn't care.

"Your hair is done" she said bringing her head downwards to meet mine. "You are the most beautiful bride I have ever seen, only that the man you are about getting marreed to doesn't deserve you. Monica call this wedding off before it is too late___"

" I have told you__ I _am_going to marry Jose even if the earth will be set ablaze because of it. Let the earth burn but Jose will be my husband In fire, Emily." I said quite calmly. I stood up and wore my wedding gown by myself, since Emily had driven all my aids away and she is now being a pain in my butt.

Looking at the mirror I saw the most beautiful bride in the whole world. And I hoped that seeing me today coming to the altar to be his jose will finally love me and we will both be Happy.

"I've warned you Don't say I didn't."

"Emily!" I exclaimed turning back to meet her eyes, my hands folded.

"Alright! Alright. It is your life. You are the Queen after all. I'm sure he will fall in love with you immediately he sees you walking so magnificently to the altar." she said sarcastically

"He will love me you will see. He will love me," I assured her. With that she rolled  her eyes murmuring something like you bet. I chose to ignore her. I didn't want anyone spoiling this day for me. The day I have dreamt of and awaited like the coming of Jesus Christ. No one can make me give up on Jose, no one. The only time I'll stop loving him is the day heaven is set ablaze and hell freezes over***.

***Walking to the altar my eyes were fixed on the most beautiful man in the entire world. The congregation admired my beauty and I admired his. He was simply magnificent, an Angel sent by God to teach me what love is.

He looked at me too and smiled he smiled at me. Oh my God! He smiled at me! I thought happiness flooding through me.

His dimples showed even from afar. I thought I was going to faint from so much cuteness. His hair was cut neatly and he had shaved his stubble making him look even younger. The grey suit he wore matched with his eyes. Oh my he was Just perfect.

When I got to the altar he looked at me with so much intensity I felt n.a.k.e.d in his gaze but I couldn't tell what he was thinking as he kept on an expressionless, blank face. He took my hands and smiled but the smile didn't reach his eyes.

We both faced the altar as the priest began.

"Monica Charles and Mario Jose Louis, have you come here to enter into Marriage without coercion, freely and wholeheartedly?" The priest read.

"Yes I am." I answered almost immediately the mass server placed the microphone on my lips.

"I am." Jose answered. He had this dull expression on his face that made me sad. I smiled at him with the intention to cheer him up but instead he got angrier.

I knew this from the way he stared at me like I was a prey to devour or an enemy. I felt so sad, I felt like crying but I thought against it. "He will love me, he has to_I love him too much to let him go." I kept repeating over and over again. "He will learn to love me."

"Are you prepared, as you follow the path of Marriage, to love and honor each other for as long as you both shall live?" The priest read again this time staring at us.

"I am." I replied smiling. This is really happening my subconscious kept nagging me. I'm getting married to Jose finally after all this years of loving only him and dreaming of this day.

"I am," he answered. The bored expression remained on his face and he seemed to get more angry each time he looked at me

"Are you prepared to accept children lovingly from God and to bring them up according to the law of Christ and his Church?"

"I am." I answered Chuckling. I couldn't imagine getting my own kids with him. Lord it will be amazing! But first we would have to have s.e.x and oh my God all the things I planned to do to him or him to me. No dirty thoughts Monica I admonished my self.

"I am," he replied. But this time he smiled. Was he thinking the same thing I was. That was a mere wishful thinking but I couldn't help but think it though. If only he could love me, if only. I'll be the happiest person in the world. I do not mind walking on fire as long as he will love me, if only he will.

"Since it is your intention to enter into the covenant of Holy Matrimony, join your right hands, and declare your consent before God and his Church." The priest continued. His eyes had a playful expression to it. I could tell he loved seeing young people like us commit to a long time relationship. He was happy for us, maybe. Or was it all my imagination, maybe.

He read the vows for Jose to read after him

"I Jose Mario take you, do take you Monica Charles to be my wife. I promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honor you all the days of my life." José said. He had a smile on his face but I could tell it was fake. The crowd jumped at cheered. I could see my father laughing at the front pew. I was here with the two men I loved the most. Life couldn't be any better.

The father turned to me and read the same vows to me which I should repeat***

"***I Monica Charles do take you Mario Jose Louis to be my husband. I promise to be faithful to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health, to love you and to honor you___" I stopped and smiled at him as tears welled up in my eyes. "All the days of my life." I continued.

Say after me the priest instructed next.

"I Mario Jose, take you, Monica Charles, for my lawful wife, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part." Jose said smiling. His voice was a whisper and it gave me chills, chills down my spine. The congregation went crazy now. Some were jumping and clapping others were crying.

"I, Monica Charles, take you, Mario Jose for my lawful husband, to have and to hold, from this day forward, for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, until death do us part." I said smiling. I saw my dad smiling back at me and I could no longer help the tears that fell freely down my face. Till death do us part I loved that. I looked into his eyes and muttered so only him could hear it. "Even death cannot separate us, or hell or the world."

This has been my dream and it is now happening. I will be his wife, and he will love me. He has to.

Emily cleaned my face and whispered in my ears something towards the line off. "Dont ruin the make up that took me years to do," with that she pinched me and I couldn't help but smile. I love her alright and she is my Best friend in the whole world no one will ever take her place.

"You guys are really up for this" the priest asked smiling. It was a rhetorical question and as such needed no answer or so I thought.

Jose looked at me with something I could best describe as fear and then smiled. I couldn't help but wonder what was going on in his mind.

It is time for the exchange of the rings the priest announced. We gestured for the page boy to come forward and so he did with the rings on his hands like offering. The diamond ring illuminated in the sunlight and nothing could describe it's beauty.

The best man Richard Jose's best friend handed the ring over to the priest and the priest opened the box and giving a ring to Jose he read the last vow.

Jose placing the wedding ring on my ring finger said "Receive this ring as a sign of my love and fidelity. In the name of the Father,__  and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit." He moved the ring from one finger to the other till He got to the right one.the ring finger

The whole church fell silent waiting for me

I smiled and placing the wedding ring on Jose's thumb I said " Mario Jose receive this ring as a sign of my love and fidelity. In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit."

Then the whole church was set aflame. With me crying and hugging Jose Mario. It felt like the story had just ended in a happily ever after but only the story had just begun. And life was no fairy tale.

Jose placing the wedding ring on my ring finger said "Receive this ring as a sign of my love and fidelity. In the name of the Father,__  and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit." He moved the ring from one finger to the other till He got to the right one, the ring finger***.