"Gab!! here, i'm over here." I said to my best friend Gab. he's also my 3 years crush. but obviously he still doesn't know that. Because I'm scared that if I confessed to him, our friendship of 3 years, will be ruined.

But still, I sometimes wonder if he also feels the same way about me. anyways, we're at our favorite place right now. I'm treating him for a meal. Because I just came back from California today. "Hi Gab! how have you been?"

"I'm doing pretty well. how about you? how was it living in California? hahaha" Gab said. "well it was fine, I missed you y'know?" I replied. " haha that's good. I missed you too." he said.

I was curious so I asked him if he has a girlfriend. " Gab, do you have a girlfriend?" " W-wha-what?! what do you mean..? I-I- don't.." he replied. that was weird. I felt like he was lying. and my mood suddenly changed.

"o-oh.. really? ok." I replied. Suddenly, A weird feeling came to me. I feel, angry and jealous at the same time. i hate feeling this. so after that, we both just started eating to avoid the awkwardness.

Then after that we both went outside to go home. of course I said goodbye to him first before leaving. but he didn't reply or say anything so I just went back home.

- **Sincerely Yours, Akila**.

I showered and went to bed. I dazed at my ceiling and was thinking, " Does he really have a girlfriend now?" " Who's his girlfriend?" argghh I can't sleep because I'm so curious. So, that's when I said to myself,

"I will tell him tomorrow that I like him and I don't care what he says it's just that I don't like feeling this way and I'll definitely accept what he says and give them both my blessings!!" I said being determined.

and so, after telling that to myself I texted him saying "Gab, I have something to tell you tomorrow. Let's meet on our usual place." " Ok. I have something important to tell you too.. Good night cya tom." he replied.

I was confused but I don't want to think about it because i'm so freaking sleepy and it's 4 in the morning! argghh damn it. The next morning, and it's 11am. But I'm still so freaking sleepy!! this is Gab's fault! arggh.

After that, you can just imagine what happens every morning for ordinary people.

I wen't to meet Gab. and he's also there already. well.. 'they'.. he brought someone...

a guy..

I sat and then I asked, "who is this, Gab?" "ohh that's what I'm gonna tell you about..." he replied. "Well I-" "I-" we both said at the same time. "You go first Gab." of course i was still a bit nervous and there's even another person here.

so I told him to go first."well where should I start.. uhm.. this is my boyfriend, David." Holy shit... what did I just hear?!!! My best friend have a boyfriend?!! my boy best friend?!!!!!! what the hell.......

I was too surpried that I can't even say a word. " I-I know this is really confusing.. but I'm not gay.." What the ****?!! What in the world is this?!! don't he have a boyfriend??

how is that not gay...???

"I'm actually not a guy too...I'm a girl..." Wait what?? This is a lot of shocking news to understand. I'm so confused... Gab explained everything to me. He has been always a girl..

for 3 years I mistook him as a guy. he said that when we both met I mistook him as a guy..well who won't though? he has a hair like a guy he's flat chested, and dresses as a boy.. and he even has a name for a guy. That's what I thought but...

his I mean 'her' name is actually Gabriela. Gab is just her nickname. and she said she was so happy to have a friend, but then that's when I asked her, "do you mind if you become my boy best friend? y'know? best friends? can we?"

"I don't really like girl best friends I don't know why. must be the trauma." she said she was sad and was scared that if she tells me she's a girl, I won't be friends with her anymore and that's why she decided not to tell me.

I realized I was too selfish and too racist. I was this person that offends people about their gender. So I forgave her for not telling me of course. It's my fault after all. I can't blame her. I don't know if I can forgive myself though.

But then, we still became friends. I apologized to all my friends who I have offended and made fun of their genders before. I realized that I'm actually the person who I always thought I would never become.

I love her. In the end, I didn't get to tell her that.

**Sincerely Yours, Akila**

-*The end*.