remember the day you asked me to stay yet, in the end your the one who left. the same day that you begged to made me stay come the promise i take a hold in my heart till now that only me and no one else yet here i am left somewhere between the sobs and these tears , having only a pillow to take a hold of the pain this day for then on i promised you wouldn't see me agian , always remember this I Love YOU my one and only you

-love, your dear cheska

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i lost between my tears holding this lonesome feeling after reading the letter she wrote her , now i believe on what they say 'you'll only knew the value of someone/something if you got to lose them' i love her i want her to know that but i never showed her on the days where she was still alive and smilling , taking me to the world out of some where that only happyness is on and the only person who know the portal to bring me there is lost, i lost her ... I'm such a freak for letting the only womman who loved and cherish me , the womman who only knoows how to make me smile ---------

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im here standing at th edge of this cliff stating the words " wait for me there my love please take me with with you , i love you" with those words i jumped of the cliff i can feel the deep water slowly drowning me . with that my breathing became hitch. i closed my eyes and remember every memory I had with her

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hi' a girl smilling ear to ear came to me , well was just crying under a tree because the girl i love once left me there saying she already loved another man

if your here just bacause you pitty me just leave i dont need any one' i said trying to stop my tears from falling

(she showed me her handkerchief)

come on dry your tears up, she's not worthy of it' i smile at her , for she'sright loveday isn't worthy of my tears she's happy with her nes man and here i was dumbfounded at least i should be happy for her she found her true happiness even though it isn't me

cheska silion" she said

call me cheska' then she smiled sweetly

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that day 4 years ago she doesn't know that the girl she just met in the park is the girl he'll love for the rest of her life whom she willing to risk everything for

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day passed tho weeks, weeks passed to years

they bacame close friends he often came to her letting out his problems , he never knew his heart already fell for that girl named cheska selion , even if his heart kept telling him he's stopping his heart for he loves loveday and he can't love two people at the same time..... even though loveday is already hap---

loveday?' he asked when he saw love day crying outside on beside the lake where he often go for a walk every afternoon

josh!!!!!' she said and hugged him, there he knew loveday needs a shoulder to lean on so she just let her cry on his shoulders

from that day loveday and him fall for each other again

months passed josh and loveday became gf/bf's again

after a week cheska came to him

josh please balieve everything that i will say i beg you josh please' he looked at his bestfriend cheska with a questioning look.

why what happed ches?' i saked

i saw loveday at the park kissing another guy, please josh belive me' she said with tears on her eyes yet he just stared at cheska with those mad eyes and said

NO CHES , LOVEDAY LOVES ME SHE WILL NEVER DO THAT ON ME!!!! CHES LEAVE ME ALONE I NEVER WANNA SEE YOU AGAIN , DONT GET TO SEE ME NOR TALK TO ME WERE NOT FRIENDS ANY MORE !!! ' I yelled at her, after that cheska ran in fear and disbelief ... something crumpled his heart that time he saw cheska cried

a few days passed he went to loveday"s house for she wanted to surprise her cause that same day was their anniversary but there he saw the door open , he felt so strange that he never knor the reason so he decided to sneak and eavesdrop he knew its bad to do so but, hes really feeling strange like loveday is hidding something from him

on the door near the kitchen he saw loveday with a man he kissed loveday and stated

when are you gonna broke up with that bastard josh huh i miss you my love'

soon my love " loveday replied and kiss the other mans cheek

there he went out from where he was hidding and said

so it true? huh your only using me, right? you know cheska is right she's been right all thiss time i lost the only person who loves me and treated me well who stayed even in my badsides . you know what he's right, your lovers rigth im such a jerk for choosing you over her whoo only wants best for me ........ i never wanna see you agian loveday, loveday? hhmmm your name sucks your not even worthy to be loved" from there he went out and speed his car off to cheska's house but then what cheska's mom told him shocked him to its peek

hi, josh right? we found this on her room i think this is for you" her mother said with tears in her eyes" she's waiting you there " she said again then oped the door there on the center part of their backyard he saw chaska laying in her death bed no life

we will burry her tommorow" her mom said to him

what happened to her , what happened to cheska she was perfectly fine 3 days ago when i last saw her? " he asked

three days ago she speed her car and fell off the cliff when we came its too late to save her I'm sorry" from there her mother burst on to tears

on the next day

early mornign he went to the cliff where cheska fall off and read the letter her mom gave him

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after remebering those he mouthed sorry my sweet, sorry cheska" and all of the sudden cheska came to his mind and said "dont waste your life for me in not worhty of it live for me for me and be happy ill be always by your side ill be always on to you i love you josh" there he opened hid eyes and found him self near the shore so he swam to be off the water and force himself not to cry

i love you, cheska. sorry i never let you feel that. thankyou for everything , thank you for giving me another chance to live i love you you'll always remain in my heart forever ... from this day forward my heart will always be on to you,

I'm still on to you even tough your gone

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