(Alicia the main character pov)

It was Sunday afternoon when I was laying on my bed thinking about myself.

'Wow...what kind of person am I?. What am I doing? Why am I so confused? Seriously I hate my over thinking self. It's a living hell.'

Lately I was having this kind of thoughts a lot. I am kind of pissed at my life. I mean I am an adolescent girl. I am going to be adult soon. Being an adult mean a lot of pressure. Like what I am gonna do in my future. Oh it's just difficult for me. Maybe for everyone. But the thought of my future is creeping hell out of me...OH! My bad by the way I am Alicia . I am 17 years old. I am in senior high school . I am not a really good student because of my grades. But I am not bad either well for now it will do. if i am being honest I really like my brain. And I am very very like very positive. Sometime my positivity shock me. Like once we had art project competition in school. one of my friend messed up my 15 page of eassy. She was so scared cause I put a lot of effort on making that. When she told me what she has done I didn't say single word I give her a friendly smile and politely told her "it's okay" . But trust me inside me I was very furious. Like I spend almost 1 week to complete that. It was very important. But thank God she didn't messed up with my drawing. I had only two hours left for my submission. I had to complete it in two hours. Like seriously. ARGHHHH I don't wanna remember that. I always had a great control on myself. I can control my emotions. I can smile even when I wanted to cry. I can cry when ever I want. I was kind of happy about that. It helps me a lot. I am emotional. But I can control i-

"Knock knock knock.." three loud knock in my door

"Alicia what are you doing? Are you sleeping again at afternoon. How many time I told you sleeping at this hour will make you fat. Wake up and get ready. you know we don't have much time." my mom said in a I-had-committed-a great-sin tone from the other side of the door.

Though I wasn't sleeping but I pretend and didn't give her any reply. I am lazy after all. After few minutes I got up from my bed. And went to the washroom. After few minutes I came back and get ready. For the last time I check my self in the mirrors before leaving my room.

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English is not my native language but I tried to do my best. hope you all will like it..please read this book and also support me..☺️☺️☺️☺️

After leaving my room I went to my mom's room and from what I what i was looking at  was so tiring like my mom is struggling with my beloved little sister and my father well he hasn't got ready. he is just wearing his pant and having a tea while talking about something important. None of them is ready and my mother was shouting at me. I went to my Mom and told her get ready while I will handle my little sister. Here come my little sister Ana . She is a very   beautiful , gorgeous and adorable girl. She is totally my opposite. . Actually I am totally opposite of my family. My mom she is stunningly beautiful and an elegant lady. My father is handsome and a very gentleman. My cousin,aunty, uncles they are all perfect.

But me well I am good for nothing. I am not ugly but I am not beautiful either. Which is a problem. I am tall. I have big eyes not cute puppy type but big. My eyelashes are quite big. My lips and nose are neither big nor small. I have long hair which is neither straight nor curly. And al-

"Sis stop daydreaming. And let's go. Mom is shouting. "Ana said while shaking me. I got back to reality. Then I take my leave with them well we are going to a family party which include family friend. Argh I don't like it. **** I like to stay alone and spend some time with myself.

After a long journey and my mother's nagging about me being not so flashy we finally reached the party. After a long greetings and 'smiles' finally the party was over. God I hate those parties they are boring.  I don't like those thing. Whatever I like to be alone. I enjoy myself a lot. I don't need company.

After coming back home. I straightly went to my room and get changed and went to bed.

And started listen music I was kind of tired so I fall asleep soon.

Next morning I woke up at 7.00 am. I had class at 9.00 am. After waking up I went to the bathroom take a bath and get ready for my school. I was a last year student. So I was kind of busy. When I reached school I straightly went to my class. Soon I found my friends. I went to them started to chit-chat. Suddenly I felt someone grabbing my ear.

"Why didn't you reply my text??bitch" asked Bella furiously. (Still pulling ear)

Ouchhhh..its hurts.. you little bitch.. leave my ear... I fall a sleep. And I was tired" I told her while slapping her hand. Then she leave my ear.

"So how was the party??"Bella asked very curiously.

"Bull shit.. It was borrrrring. "I replied

"Did you take pictures"

"Yeah."

"I wanna see."

"Okay"

I started so show her pictures. Soon our Teacher came and the classes started.

After a long day I came back home near 5.00 pm. I was tired. But I had to study. I was walking to my home direction. Suddenly I wanted to hear music so plug in my head phone and started to hear no one else the world best boy band "BTS". I am great fan of them. I love everything about them.I was listening "Just One Day"Soon I reached home.

When I reached I saw my mother is cooking dinner. I asked her "mom is some one coming?why are you cooking so much food?"

"Oh you came home.Yes we are expecting special guest. Go get ready and wear something nice. I want you to look very pretty today. Okay dear" My mother told me. I felt a bit suspicions but I was tired I didn't say anything and went to my room take a nice bath and get ready for the dinner. Little did I Know this so called special guest will turn the table of my life in a unexpected way.

Soon some people come. Two women and Two man. Both women were middle aged near 40. Other two man one was old another one was young age near 28 maybe. Whatever I don't care. After greeting them I went to my room. And started to read a novel. Which I was reading for 3 days and its almost finish.

But something doesn't feel good. Every time I feel bad. Bad thing happens. Oh god I don't want any problem I HATE PROBLEMS.

*Knock knock*

Someone is knocking in my door softly I am sure it's not my mother or anyone else because they always knock in my door as if it's going to break. So I hide my romantic novel and went straight to open the door and also make sure to grab another science fiction book. Well I love science fiction book a lot. Everyone knows that but no one knows that I love to read erotic romance novel too with smut 😏😉. It's secret don't tell anyone one please. Anyways opening the door I saw those two women. They were smiling. As a very good girl. I asked them politely "Hello. Please come in.

"Hello. How are you dear? What is your full name? "one of them asked who look kind of older.

"Alicia  Bellovent" I replied

They started to ask a lot of questions about me. What can I do and what I can't. About my cooking skill and house chores. Next they ask me about if I have a dream or not. As a passionate girl I was beyond annoyed on their question.

"Yeah obviously I have my own dream. I want to study as an English literature. I want to be a Writer. My dreams are my first priority." I answered them.

The next thing they say that wake the sassy bitch inside of me.

"But you are a girl you will have to get married and after getting married your husband will take care of you. So what's the point of reading so much. If you got to marry a rich husband you don't have to think about money."

"What??? Marriage and me it's impossible. Well I don't believe in that at all. I am all by myself. I am self depended. I don't like to waste someone else money. This is what I believe. And I am too young to think about marriage. Beside i can think about it later. its not like i am getting married tomorrow" I reply to them sassily.

They wanted to say something But my mother came.

"Dinner is ready. Let's go. "my mother said.