...have you ever heard people say love is like surrendering. this phrase express my life in differnt angles. my name is Stellaluna. i know its kinda long. my parents like moon and starts like anything that shine at night. well they didnt give me good childhood so my name is enough i guess. anyway my friends call me stella some call me lona too no one actually call me by my full name except my ex jaemin.........we broke up about 2-3 years ago. he was my first relationship i dated around alot after him just to forget him but it didnt workout so i stoped. jaemin and i broke up in my senior year of highschool i couldnt take it anymore so i brokeup with him. even if i have the chance to relive that moment again i would still brake up with him. ...

...jaemin and i start dating when i was in grade 10 he was one year younger in class than me but when it was in age he is 3 years older. he had alot of family problems back in middle that he was forced to stop school temporary. he was the first one who talked to me back in middle school so i kinda take him as a special friend. but unfotunetly after he returned to school after all that years things start to change he started messing around with girls more like to make him forge things ahh i guess he changed so much. he didnt even talk to me nor my friends as he used to he wont approach a girl unless she approaches him first. over the years his attitude became worse as years passed. and i stoped thinking about him as i used to i was in bad situation myself......after a while between me and my girls things starts to get worked up and we start to quarrel. here is what happend there this girl in our group her name is shad and she was kinda attention seeker and the girls in our class starts talking about her and her dramaqueen acts i mean i dont blame them she is differnt honestly but its not good to talk about anybody behind their back. anyway one day some girls where talking about her in front of me and i didnt just get in their conversation and stop them i was waiting for the right time to defend her i swear but out nowhere she came shouted at the girls and starts shitting me next i couldn't say anything ofcourse until she starts crossing the line i started shouting and she grabbed my hair we starts fighting and end up in the office "what happens to you i taught you where a good student" she asked us "ya am good at acting" i mumbled "what" " nothing" i answered if you two arent going to tell me anything am afraid i have to talk to your parents" " NO" we shouted " you cant my father is busy today dont call him pls" shad begged .. well i dont know how but the teacher mark us up and warned as and send us back to class. the people in class all surround and ask her what happens i guess guilt starts flowing in their body now well i couldnt care less i survived today.things where quite after that but a week later people i used to call friend starts turning their back at me one by one my life starts to change i got bullied a lot. i was kinda quiet so i couldn't tell anyone. after some time i lost my concentration at school and my grades starts to drop. one day my dad came to ask teachers about my grades how considerate of him right.....they told him that i will fail if it continues like this so they asked him to look after me ask me why and staff he didn't say anything after that and came directly home. i was at home that day i didn't go to school i was just tired that day. i planned to think about my life too while am resting. i fell asleep in my bed ahh it been long since i slept quietly it feels nic- and ofcourse before i finished my dad starts knocking so hard on the door i get up and i opened the door and out of nowhere he starts shouting and braking the things in my room " aren't you just shameless even though you are the reason of our miserable life you dont even study and work hard to be a better person it should have been you who was dead instead of your sister she would have been alot better" " DAD can you stop pls" " SHUTUP SHUTUP" he started hitting me with the wood he was holding and without me knowing i lost consciousness....

...when i wakeup i was in my bed the room was cleaned the window was open it was morning already i got up and go to take a hot long shower to calm my self up i couldnt bring my self to cry or blame anyone i just feel like i want to die but am afraid to face the reality i didnt do anything useful until now i wanna be abit stronger than i am right now before i meet my sister. after that day i started studying and become like a hobby for me....

... i stoped talking to people in my class or rather they stoped bothering me i removed a lot of people in my life even if its lonely i prefer it this way my grades where good and my parent never nag with me my life improved a little everyday until....

... i dont know much about my mom she come home sometimes she spend her time in hospital almost everyday because trauma caused during the accident that take my sister. my mom is suicidal women she tries all means to kill herself well unfortunetly she always end up in hospital. i dont really care about her much she dont love me nor my dad she never cares so neither do i. that what i thought until yesterday....

... yesterday i was walking with my mom to home she was telling me why she cant love anymore and why she cant live i mean i heard this talk more than 20 time so i didnt care much i was just trying to understand her until we starts to cross the road my mom walked inside the cars and passed away on the spot. i couldnt help myself but cry out for help i called dad he came and blame it all in me of course shouted at me he even send me to orphanage after the funeral it was like the end of the world for me i stayed there for half year luckily i was still going to school no one knew anything about the incident so everything there was normal....

... one day while i was returning from school the nanny there called from the door and shouted "she is home" i cant believe her she never noticed me what gotten to her all of the sudden while i was mumbling a women from her back comes out and hugged me. ...

...it feels weird i dont even know her why am i crying out with her. after we both cooled down she told me that she is my moms sister she run here after she heard that i was sent here. "He so ruthless how could he sent you here dont worry honey Stella from now on you are my daughter okay i will never treat you any less than my children so be good and come with me home okay" well i was too hungry to love to refuse so i agreed with a bright smile on my face. after that i packed up and left the orphanage and head home with her. after a while we reached her house there were kids playing at the yard of the house. "kids come and introduce yourself to your sister". the kids came over to talk to me there were 4 kids total 3 girls and one boy. "hey am Rina" said the little one i guess she is youngest. "hey Rina am Stellaluna" i said. "ste luna thats long can i call you luna instead its much better" Rina said with a smile on her face"ya you better do" i chuckled. "i am next am Zinlen its hard right just call me z like other kids" she smiled "we never called you that though" said the oldest one i dont know her name yet. she grabbed my hand and said "whatever i feel connection between as luna so you can just call me as you want" i smiled "okay then i will call you zen" " no you cant that is mans name" she grumbles. "but i thinks its cute and suites you i swear" " fine then" she smiled. "ow by the way she is the eldest no need to use formality with her and her name is vena" what fast speaker she is i could only hear her name. "shutup i wanted to introduce myself on my own." " hah" i laughed "you two are close" i said "ya kinda we have seen each other for 16 ofcourse we are" vena sighed. so she is 16 she is equal age with jaemin. if only he didnt left school they would have been same class. "hey where is that jerk isnt he going to meet stella" the little one asked *ow so cute i love her already* "dont worry about him arent you going to show me where my room is?" i smiled "ow i forgot you are going to sleep with me" zen started leading the way. "here you are isnt it cute i decorated it myself" "its so cute" i praised her. the room was full of dolls alot of them well i guess she is the girly type. "Stella rest here okay i will come after you sleep" "its okay i am not ti-" she shutted the door. sigh* she never listen well whatever she is right i need to rest....

...i cant believe i have my own family it was only this morning that i was living the orphanage for school. ahh it seem nice to be real. i dozed off thinking that night....

..."Stella WAKEUP" Zen shouted umm just alittle ahh. "no you are going to be late henry is shouting since morning get out" . okay okay dont rush me. "sigh* why am i the one who wakes you everyday cant i sleep in peace." then dont wake me i covered my face. dont joke around get out i said get out. she start throwed the pillow at me. "okay okay dont touch me" i sighed. Henry is my brother he is younger than me. he is in the same class jaemin they are grade 7 i am now grade 8. its only me and him who go the same school since we are both in middle school. its been around 3 months since i camewith my aunt live here my life improved alot i came here now i have a family that loves me i have friends too. am not alone as i used to. heh i started smiling "hey stella what are you smiling for its gross " henry shouted. "non of your business " "STELLA am going to leave you behind" "leave then" "MOM"HE SHOUTED "hey Stella get down here" "but mom". " i said get down" "serves you right". he smirked. "whatever lets go who gets to school last is a fried broom." i start running "wait what kind of word is tha- hey Stella its not funny." Henry shouted. "come run we are going to be late." "you are the one to talk."… we run until we get to school "class already started Henry go let me catch breath i cant go on ah." "i told you stop this what you get." "Shutup and give me water." "here am going have fun." he throwed the bottle on my face "YOU JERKK" I shouted. "sorry big sis"he laughed....

...i really love ken even though we fight most of the time he still cares alot about us. i knew him before i became member of his family. he was jaemin's friend back then he never talked to me so i didnt know much about him but now he is my lil prince i know alittle more about him everyday. i know alil more about jaemin thanks to him i know how bad he turned over the years....

..."hey Stella" abir called. Abir is my friend she also the current jaemin girlfriend. i dont think he loves her but Abir is just stubborn to accept that. "hey girl" i hugged her. "you dont know what your girlfriend did yesterday after you left." "what did i miss something feels fishy huh?" stop it wait until i tell you "jaemin took me to the cafe (happy pie) and boughet me a cake for my birthday- but sweetheart your birthday is today. dont cut me while i talk……and do you know what he gave me for my birthday." wait wait please dont say a kiss please. no but he said he loved mee . "are you sure cause am gonna cut him of soon and make him regret not loving yo sooner." " come on dont be like that stella" her eyes became teary "okay okay a kidding you love him thats what matter but if he brake your then dont hold me back". "dont worryabout that cause he wont he loves me and i love him we are meant for eachother." "my friend is so bubbly but when she is talking about him she became even more." it annoys me but what can i do apart from her dating him. she always agrees with what i say so i just let her be for now atleast....

...i was against her all the time when she started dating him it was one sided and i didnt want her to get hurt because of him. but i couldnt hold her she was so blinded by him. she even agreed to brake up with him if it doesnt work out between them. but god knows why they are still dating. i doubt he loves her am sure its just to keep her around. they just see each other only at school. its only her who follows him she is just like minion to him. what so good about him well i guess i have to be by her side sigh*...

..."whats wrong Stella why are you sighing." "nothing let me buy you a cake later too its your birthday after all." " yay sure lets go to happy pie later." "...

...babe" this voice…...

...babe" this deep voice...."i was searching for you what are you doing here" its jaemin. "i was just chatting where you searching for me?" what a sweet talker abir its'-'.he such a jerk i better go "Abir am going to the restroom you go with him" "okay!" "am going to call you out later love you." she whispered. ahh she seems so excited sigh iwent back to class after that. " your friend seems to avoid me alot whats wrong?" he asked her. "no no its your imagination she wont think anything bad about you trust me." she is bad at lieing heh. "hmm i dont think so."...

...he sighed am taking my mid exam next week i should focus on my studies its the only thing that i can focus on now....

...the week passed and its already the exam day am not that nervous since i studied hard for it. we are taking maths and biology today weird combination right. am good at science staff but am kinda bad on maths so i depend on abir in exam room to help with it. what i can't help it i can't get zero. i better cheat that fell right? anyways our school like any other school in the country mix differnt class or section students in one class 30 student each to avoid cheating and other unnecessary staffs. me and Abir never got separated we always work together sweet right. but now Jaemin is taking exam here am not in mood to be bubbly with my girlfriend it sucks... i hate jaemin i really do he changed my girl so much she been so broken since she mate him. i dont want her to continue that way. anyway forget about him stella focus on the test we are taking maths first sooo where is Abir. ow here she is "Abir" i called. "wait" she said. uh okay let see the question while waiting for her shall we. after 5 min of reading how the star cant i understand any of this i sighed. "instead of sighing cant you try to do my questions instead" "and who are yo-" "heyy" he said. he was Jaemin "so can you try it" tch so rude. "make it close so i can atleast read it" i said...

..."fine here you go" he seems excited. "dont be so polite i might not know a shit in it." i sighed "i know i will be satisfied if its not only me who sees a differnt language." he laughed. "hehe i should laugh for that dont i?" i forced a laugh. "Stella" abir called. "yes have you finished" i turned yoward her "yes filp your page" she said "here tell me" do the choose first 1 b 2 c.........i dont know the workout do it yourself" she said "okay sweety this is enough."i forwarded a kiss "why are you flirting with my girlfriend" ahh i forgot he was here. "she was my girlfriend first you just stole her from me." i shouted. "Stella keep quiet" the teacher said. "SORRY!" i sounded embarrassed. "heh serves you right" he smiled "Jaemin just you wait until we get out am gonna ripe of your tongue."i made ajoke "am looking forward to it" he said while living the room. "ahh peace."but weird he didnt do the answers how can he just get out. " Abir am waiting for you outside." i said she nodded....

...that over tgere look like Henry... "Henry!" i run excitedly towards him hm seems to be with a was women "who is she?"i asked. "she is Jaemin ex"he sighed "what she doing here?" i asked back "she wanted Abir's phone she seems like she wanted to talk about something"he sighed again such an actor. "so did you gave her the number" "no" "you did great where is she now" "your exam room i guess" "okay let me go check" "what are you- Stella" he shouted. "i cant leave Abir alone with those psychopaths. i have hurry." i answered. " sigh.. why is she so kind to her"...

...little did i know that me being late to rescue her would ruin our relationship. "you have leave him Abir its for your own good he is too much for you" "yea" "leave him alone" " you cant even control Stella from approaching him" the girls started talking. " b bu but i l llov live him." she said while trumbling. "your love isnt enough Abir how many times should i tell you gosh" "and why isnt it enough" i mendelled. "its non of your business." "well i think it is since she is involved." i said. "well i guess her love is better than your filthy love." i mocked....

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