I am Li Jing Wa ; a senior highschool student and today ;it's my first day at this new school .

I am pretty shy and quiet ....well knowned as the ugly nerd at school.

My stepfather wasn't happy with my presence at his house with mum neither near his daughter ,my stepsister .She hated me because i was brillant at school and closer to her brothers . So mum made me go and live with my grandmother and aunt in the Wang city at the age of 12.

My aunt was a slut she always bring different men to the house at night and get drunk in the morning .

On the other hand grandma was sweet and caring but weak so i had to help with the chores . I didn't have time to play with kids my age and have fun while making friends.And instead i read books on my grandfather's study room .And from what grandma said: he was obsessed with books and spending time alone like i do .

I spended 4 years in the house living in a normal life happy with grandma til the day that she fell asleep and never woke up again .

She had a heart attack after arguing with Aunty that started smoking and she fainted .

When i notice that i lost my only familly left i was depressed so i locked myself in grandpa's office for the whole holidays drinking water and eating snacks .

After i got out i found out that my aunt is sick so i tried to treat her by things i read from books....And in a week she got better ....She was so thankful and promised me to not smoke ;drink and sleep with men ever again .

She found a job in a news company and i started having better life with her ;she helped me to forget my sadness and get out of a my dark zone .

She was so playful and funny that she decided to by a clown as a part time job and made me join her .I was happy to have such an aunt and better if it's was earlier ..cuz still a voice deep inside me blame her for my grandma death.

Seeing kids having fun and happy was the biggest pleasure to have but still i got jealous from some that lives with them parents happily and celebrate them birthdays cuz at the end i am still a kid .

One day while we vonlanteer to preform in a orphanage i realised that maybe my life is better than many other kids cuz some was gived up cuz of a kind of deasease or disability .So i am thankful to god that i still got a person who cares for me .

Two years pasted;my aunt and i had to move on to Xiao city ;there where i have to start a new life .Due to her low salary we lived in a poor street far from school .My life can't get worst than this?!Right

After we moved on me and my aunt ; we started to be distant again .We had no time to go to the orphanage ;and we barely meet at the dinner table .

I was the only transferred student to the school ;and everyone was staring at me in the court .My heart was beating faster while hearing the gossips about me *(hhhhh a new nerd )(ohh she is ugly)(and i heard that she lives in the darck street)(hhhh look at her glasses she looks like a fish)*...

I was pretty nerveous and not expecting much from this year ,but when i met my childhood friend Na Xia Cie i became more relaxed .She used to be me and my siblings friend since 3yo til the day her father had to change his job .I missed her so much for the whole 8 years that passed .

I don't think she changed ;she is friendly with everyone ;funny ;kind ;and brave.She was strong enough to protect her self not like me.The only change was her appearance she was a cute girl with long blonde hair and shiny green eyes .She used to blush everytime my brothers are around.

But now her hair become shorter and she showed me a tattoo on her back of a dragon even if she is underaged ;her eyes became so cold .She doesn't blush anymore around boys .

I entered the school while everyone staring at me when Xia came took my hand and showed around .She always gave me the energy to surpass problems .She think that i am always stupid while she is .She also made me meet her cousin a very handsomme boy; tall with drck navy hair and green eyes like hers that was kind with me and loved my red eyes ;named Na Zan Xie.

We entered class together;and i had to present myself .i was to nervous that i said just my name in a low voice .The class started laughing and the teacher asked me to take a chair .All the good places was taken so i had to sit on the back of the class .

At the pause time; She came to me and

-said in a scary tone :(Here were the ghosts sit ...there was 4 students that died after graduation that used to sit here and in a weird way .One fell at the stairs ;one was hitting by a lighting ; one died after the library's bookshelves fall and he was under hundred of books ;and the last fell from a cliff on a school trip.)

She thaught that i was scared like i used to be and i will change my sit .But i was pretty curious about the details of the story so

-i said :(Really ???!so i am going to die after the graduation ...i am pretty curious about the way i 'll die )while laughing .

At lunch ;i joined Xia and Zan at the table .Suddenly a bunch of pretty full girls came and asked to sit down near Zan .Some sat on his lap and others started kissing him .

-Xia was angry and said:(Zan look i know it's a habit of yours but Li Jing isn't famillar with that )

-He answered :(oh sorry LiJing you aren't famillar with and started kissing the girls i am sorry but you have to start accepting this )

I said in a sad tone: (Well take your time and have fun ....and thanks for the advice i will leave ...i have something to do at the library )

I left Xia and Zan behind and went to the library .

I went to the library and started reading some medecin books when the librarian came to me in a suprised expretions

-and said: "What a miracle ..it's been a while since i saw a student coming here... out of test season ....You have a pretty weird taste...But you seem smart " She was a old lady with very young body stucture and wearing glasses .

I was observing her taking books to them sections when she turned around and smiled : ""you know what would like to help me in the library....Everyday??!By the way i am Nuan Qiu and you are?

-"I am i am Li Jing Wa ."

-"Beautiful name.. ok you can start work from know"

I was surprised but happy and accepted her suggestion with hesitation .

My first task that day was to bring some new books from the stockage in the back yeard ..And while i was moving the books i accidently injured my hands .I went then to the court to wash my hands with cold water.

Aberaptly, the same bunch of girls that was with Zan at lunch came to me with angry faces i tried to avoid them but they took by my hand and thrown me to the wall ....They started laughing and harming me ,while i didn't answer them...The boss ;a very beautiful slut with purple hair took from my hair and said:

"Well well ...you have a weird eyes red ??!Are you obsessed by demons ???You really think Zan like you and your eyes ...If every think about it and start meeting him ...Even taking a look at us ..I will take off your eyes...Ok!:"

She splits at my face and took a bottle of water from her fellow and pourd it on me .

Her fellows startef hitting me hard ;i was scared not from them but from me .I was trying hard not to react .when suddenly Zan and Xia came in a hurry and helpt me.

I was about to thank them ...when they thrown me away and started abusing me

-"She is actually a slut ...."said Xia

-"She is pretty though i wanna have her for me ...opps it's a joke"

-"Hhhhhh you are so funny Zan who wants to sleep with an ugly creature ...let me see..mmmmmmmaybe Fatty Yin or Discusting Feng ...you choose"

-"I heard her dad died because of her "

-"Oh my god don't look at me with those eyes or you gonna kill me too"

-"Friends ?!acually i was your friend just to be close to your stepsister and brothers they are so handsome and pretty and smart and wealthy and...Oooh are they still alive or did you kill them too"

-'"She killed her grandma also....And probably her sluty aunt "

-"Guys we better leave or the ghost will chase us at night ..oooooooooo...HHHHHHHH"

-"Cio adios baby 💋hhh"

I got up; cleaned my self ;i started heating my chest so hard and punshing a tree where nobody sees me while my teeth were crushing by anger.

I wasn't that suprised but a bit sad and angry for being friend with Xia . I was mad at my self to have falling for such a playboy.I was mad at grandma ;father for giving me such eyes and and then left me ;i was mad at mum that give birth of the others JunMu ; Lian Mu and LongMu i hated them all that moment.

I hate me and my eyes ;they should be thankful that nothing happened to them or else there is no way out from this.

"They better be kidding with me.....they better be "while tears comming out from my eye.