Finally I passed my exam entrance to enroll in one of my favorite Hanyang university but I can't make it to the department I dream of since in junior highschool which is International Relation; goodbye to my dream, I hope we can meet in my next or other life. First year as a student I have to live in the dorm with 3 people which I don't really know at first but glad we could become friends though we are not in the same faculty.

Mina, Riu and Hazel they gradually become my bestfriend in my first year. Mina took Arts as her major, Riu wants become a doctor like her parents, Hazel in Law (oh she's the smartest) and I don't have any choice except digital marketing. Anyway I'm glad I could make it after 2 times failed in the exam entrance.

The first thing that make me glad today is my class is cancel so I could sleep a whole day but then my phone is ringing too loud that makes me wake up annoyed.

Who is this? *&@:@%@%@ - I ask with half sleep voice

RACHELLLL PLEASE HELP ME I LEFT MY REPORT ON THE DESK, please bring it I will waiting in front of my faculty building. (click she hung up)

Wait....... is that Mina voice??

Crap I need to get there quickly where is the report? should I brush my teeth? ah later I should just change my pyjamas and get there as fast as I can.

Mina call me again: "WHERE ARE YOUUU?..."

"I'm on my way you better not call me you know I can't run faster than you". This time I hung up first.

I run as fast as I can and then realized her faculty is too far from our dorm and I couldn't run more faster what should I do????? there's a guy ride on bicycle should I ask his help he's coming to my direction, I don't know him but I really need a help.

"Please help me, could you please take me to the Faculty of Arts?" Omg he is handsome as hell, how come I didn't know him.

"Wth are you doing? don't jump in front of me like this this is dangerous we both could hurt". He shouts at me but why I feel his voice is so soothing.

"I'm sorry but this is urgent I need your help I really need to get there faster and I can't run anymore I feel dizzy..please..please" (I make my face pitiful looks to the max)

"Arts building, right? get on I also on the way there".

After four months I never enjoy my university like this and alsp today the sun shines so bright makes everything perfect and even his back is perfect, his hair is straight like a male lead in the drama mostly hmm which actor he looks like? who is he? which faculty he's in? Is he a senior? what is his name? how old is he?.

Oh God I want to know more about him and suddenly my head crashed to his back.

"There you go, we arrived"

Why so fast "aaah sorry, thank you so much I will treat you coffee later" I saw Mina coming to us

"RACHEL finally you come, thank you I have to go back now" her eyes makes a signal to the guy as she wants to know more later.

His park his bicycle in front of the faculty and his coming back to me

"I think you can buy me a coffee later I have a class now. Hmm... Rachel, right?

"eh?.. yes I'm Rachel" he is tall I need to look up

"Give me your phone" he lift up his hand

I give my phone voluntary (I'm so helpless)

"Save my number, my name is Daniel. I have to go now, bye!"

Oh holy molly he is grinning at me why are you so handsome.... I just helpless standing there around 10 minutes looking at the glass door and realized holy crap my appearance is really ugly rigth now, no make up 100% bare face, no shower and do not ask my smell at lease I change my clothes...ah I'm going to faint.

This is my first time I meet him in my first year of semester, a good looking guy in arts department, same year as me and Mina and I learnt from her that Daniel is really popular as a fresh junior, he can sing and dance and also got full remarks in everything.

Slowly we become closer to each other as I contact him first to treat him a coffee as promise, we become know each other and then a couple. Though I don't know why he wants to be my boyfriend I can ask him later, for now let me enjoy my first lover. ♡

Everything perfect in my first semester, now I don't regret I'm not in International Relation department because my department is next to Arts department building so I could see Daniel almost everyday, we usually having lunch together sometimes Mina join us and they both sometimes discuss about their lecture which is I don't understand so I just take the moment to admire Daniel face, his laugh is so contagious that makes me also laugh. If I walk with him side by side there will be some jealous girls eyes looking at me and they will discuss something about us, I know they don't like me because I can be Daniel girlfriend. I don't want summer to end, I can't handle not seeing him on semester break. It will be too hard not to see his smile, laugh, hear his voice and the face when he boast his dancing skill. Oh God I hope this moment will stop for a while, let me be selfish for once in my lifetime.

I barely passed my second semester test. Pfftt it's so hard to study while I have to work part time. I need to take extra job because I don't want my father to worry about the tuition fees. I call him once a week he lives alone after my mother passed away 3 years ago and he looks tough about it but I saw him cried. I have plan to take more job this semester break and also I need to move from the dorm it's too expensive lives in here. Mina, Riu and Hazel will keep staying in the dorm because they need to focus on their study besides they have enough money to pay for it. I'm sad to leave them.

It's early morning Riu coming after her early morning jogging; "Hey Rach, tell me if you need a ride. You have so many stuffs to move"

"Thank you I will call you if I need a help"

"Have you found a new place?"

"ah yes it's a quiet nice but it will takes 30 minutes to come here"

"Daniel will help you to move, right?"

"I don't know, I will ask him later he seems busy with the practice"

Hazel suddenly woke up: "Right tomorrow is the campus day event, my department also asked me to join their performance" she said with a weird face.

"Really?? what kind of performance your department prepare? Is it debate? hahahaha" Mina also come to join this conversesion.

"I don't even know and do not want to know" Hazel

"I'm gonna miss your guys" I said to them.

"You have to visit us if you not we will find and haunt you" Mina said.

"hahahaa yes I will I don't want to be haunt". I answer

🎵🎶🎵🎶🎵🎶 my phone is ringing it's Daniel:

"Good morning~~~ do you sleep well?"

"Morning, yep. How bout' you?" he answer

"Not really because I barely survive this exam so I had a nightmare"

"Haha don't be sad. I have a practice today maybe a whole day. What will you do?"

"hmm I think I will take a part time job at noon until evening" (actually I have to move today)

"Okay, don't be tired yourself. I will call you if I can slip one or two hours"

"Don't worry"

"You will come to the event tomorrow, right? I want to show you my performance"

"Of course, I will come over but I guess you'll be perform excellent"

"And I want you to see it Rachel" in his soothing voice

"I promise I will come"

"Great, see you then and.....I miss you" He hung up

(I do missed you Daniel almost one week we didn't see each other because I have to prepare the exam).

"So Riu I think I need your help to move" with my begging face.

"How about Daniel? He's not gonna help you?"

"He needs to practice a whole day and I don't want to bother him about this. I'm sorry"

"It's okay Rach, we will help you" Hazel said.

"Don't worry I also will help you" Mina said.

"Thank you guys"

"Hey don't mention it, that's what friends are for, right?" Riu. I'm really bless to have them.

My new place is so small but it's cozy. The important thing is I don't need to give the full deposit which make me relieve. Mina, Riu and Hazel were back to the dorm in the evening. I have to tidy up my room and it feels empty without them.

🎼🎵🎶🎵🎼 my phone ringing who's calling me at this time? unknown number?

"Hello. Is this Rachel Kim?"

"Yes, I am Rachel"

"We are calling from S Hospital your father was fainted in his workplace, could you come here?"

"YES, I will come right now" I change my clothes and go as fast as I can. Oh my God please help my father, what happen to him?

I took a taxi to go there and found out that my father faint due to the mild stroke. He barely can move his right hand and doctor said he needs to monitor him for whole night and later he also need physiotherapy so he could move his hand. I have to stay with him tonight.

It's 7am now, I couldn't sleep last night. It's relieve that my father didn't have any pain but I need to stay beside him. Sorry Daniel I think I can't see your performance today. I will send him a message or should I call him? He might be busy?

"Good morning Rachel" The Doctor come to check my father.

"Good morning Doctor, how is my father?"

" We will need to examine your father today"

"Alright Doc, I will be here to accompany him"

Time passes by it's almost evening aah right I forgot to send Daniel a message:

Hi Daniel, sorry I have something came up so I can't go to see your perform. Even so I know you will showing an outstanding performance because I believe in you. Fighting!!

I've got reply immediately from him, but when I want to open:

"Rachel where am I?" my father woke up

"We are in hospital dad, you fainted yesterday"

"Why I can't move my right hand?"

"Please wait dad and let me call the doctor first"

The doctor finally can rest assured my father that he will can move his right hand later after the therapy. Finally he can eat his dinner and also I need to settle the administration. It's really expensive 2 million won?? I only have 1 million and I keep it to pay my next semester credit.. sigh but the important thing is now. Oh right? I forgot to read Daniel message:

"What happened?"

"Where are you?"

"Can I call you?"

"You had promise me to see my performance"

"Rachel, what's wrong with you???"

"You really disappoint me this time"

Oh no he sent me a lot of messages and I have missed his call. What should I reply to him? Should I reply now? but it's almost 1am. He must be sleep.

I can watch his performance in our college site.

Woowww he really cool as always, the crowds respond so well and a lot of positives comments about him. I should congratulate him later. Somehow tonight is so cold and I'm sitting here without realize my tears falling apart and I reply to his text:

"I'm sorry".

Is it right for me to choose this path?

Should I just going back to where I begin?

I'm 26 years old now and it takes six years for me to graduated from university, I have two years off to save money for work here and there until now I still have to pay the tuition fees. Glad that my university allowed me to graduated.

I move back to my father home after that incident. He is almost fine now and told me not to worry about him. He wants to work again but I told him better not to unless is not too heavy for him. And now I'm an intern in advertising company, do not ask my work as an intern where I begin in the low level where to support all general matter. It's been 5 months I work there and everyday is a war, they been working me out overtime in every single day. But it makes me have more pay and also this is top 5 advertising company so I shouldn't waste this opportunity.

"Rachel could you buy me a coffee, Americano with a little bit sugar"

"I also want cafe latte without sugar"

"Me..me cappucino with brown sugar"

I'm intern in their team Kevin, Jenny and Nia.

"Okay please wait" I have company team card with me and this is usually what my day begin in this company.

While I'm waiting my order to come out I saw Daniel on a tv screen, his group comeback with the new mini album and they are promote everywhere even held a tour in overseas. Hmm he is more taller now maybe 190cm? while I stop growing up in 160cm, I remember I pray to God every single day to have at least 168cm to suit his height at the college but my hope is gone I just grow 2cm more and stopped, huffttt. He looks more mature and of course his voice and dance is more skill and powerful now. I'm glad he is make it to the top now and am wonder who is the lucky girl to marry him later? I hope you are happy Daniel. Back that time I was too busy with my father and my part time job. I didn't have time to say goodbye to him because I need 2 years off leave the college and I learnt from Mina after the performance that night he was scouted by Top Agency. And they persuade him to join as a trainee and just after 5 months he makes debut with his group Blacknight. Although He trained hard as an Idol He could graduate on time. Ain't his cool? I know he will be success in everything and I saw his face everywhere on a billboard, at the make up store, clothes store ans even on a cup in my office is his face because apparently Jenny fan girling over him. They are almost everywhere that makes me can't easily forget about him.

"No.63 Rachel, Americano, Caffe Latte, Capuccino"

"Thank you"....

Back to the office "Here's your coffee"

"Thank you" hmm at least Kevin said thank you.

"You know we will have a new project with coffee company" Kevin announce

"Which company?" ask Nia

"M company"

"And you know what they just announced the group as their ambassador is Blacknight"

What?? am I heard it wrong?? Daniel?

" Wowww so we will have a project with them?" Jenny fangirling mode on*

"Maybe but I don't know the detail yet I have meeting with them in this evening, who wants to join me?" Kevin ask

"I can't I have a dinner date this is almost three weeks since the last time I meet my boyfriend" Nia answer

"I also can't join I still need to revised our previous project but I will make sure I join this new project I want to see them specially Daniel" Jenny said with her hand clap.

"So Rachel you will join me?" He made eye contact with me

"Ah yes I would be gladly to help" I answer

"Okay then we will go to M Company at 5pm"

The meeting is run really intense around 3 hours, Kevin is so good as a project team leader. He is really detail and I can see his focus eyes makes him looks more charisma and cool like when I saw Daniel singing and dancing (Oh come on Rachel! What I'm thinking)

"Rachel please prepare all the things for the shooting maybe we wil start as soon as possible because they wants to match the schedule with Blacknight"

Whattttt? Blacknight?

" Ah okay. I will arrange everything tomorrow" I said.

" Thank you for accompany me tonight, I will drop you off to your home"

"No..no thank you but you can drop me off at the nearest station"

"It's almost 10pm. Is the train still working in this hout?"

"Yes until 12am."

"Okay then, If you want"

I have so many thoughts last night if Blacknight can make the schedule to do the advertising then I will meet with Daniel again? what should I do if we meet? He might be forget about me? should I hide? but it will be many people in there he will not recognize me it's been six years almost seven years we saw each other.

"The theme for the M company project is blooming flower, Rachel please ask the purchasing department to request the necessary item" Kevin come after meeting with the creative team fron M company.

"So will Blacknight come?" Jenny ask him

"Yes they have a set the schedule on Monday next week, we need to hurry we don't have much time left"

" Hmm how about if we shoot outdoor? I given my opinion.

"It's spring now and the theme is blooming flower we can shoot in cherry blossom tree" I added.

" Yes it's great idea so we could save more cost" Nia added

"Yes yes it good but we need to find the location first and ask the permission, do you know where is the good location?" Kevin ask me.

"Hanyang University?" I answer reluctant

"I graduated from Hanyang I knew who the auhority in charge"

"Great than call them now and we will go check it now, let's go Rach" Kevin took his bag and camera

I'm back to my university again it is more pretty in Spring because of the cherry blossom tree. I remember it was the first date with Daniel we are walking along these tree hand in hand.

"Woww this place is pretty Rachel" Kevin smile at me

He takes a picture of the location.

"I will go to ask the permission maybe we need to shoot for 6 hours right?" I ask

" It might be faster because Blacknight is busy but better we said 6 hours".

"Okay then, please wait here".

My energy is worn out a whole weekend to prepare everything, finally Monday we will begin to in the morning at 7am before the campus activity begin. I arrived at the location at 6am and make sure everything is ready. I also bring sunglasses in case I need to hide my worn out face. Kevin come at 6.30 he is also perfectionist, Nia and Jenny come bit later and the mini bus appear brought the 4 member of Blacknight. And while everyone step forward to see them, in contrary I step backward I don't want Daniel to see me. I choose to hide at the back.

Kevin and the director come to greet them and direct them the concept. I see Daniel from far away he is really tall, skinny but bulk fit. My heart nearly stopped I see him again after six years and he is freaking awesome now. Here come again the butterfly on my belly it was the same feeling as the first time I saw him in this University. Nice to meet you again Daniel~~

The shooting went smoothly and almost near to an end. They are really professional both the team also the group.

"Rachel where are you? " suddenly Kevin shouts my name

"Nia do you see Rachel?"

"She's at the back"

"Rachel.. Rachel please come here"

Holy crap what should I do? should I go or stay? but it's Kevin who call my name I have to go but let me put on my sunglasses. I running toward them and I see Daniel slowly more near and near...

"Yes... Do you call me? I ask Kevin and turns my back side from Daniel so he will not recognize me.

"Yeah do you bring more clothes, right? please asisst Daniel to change his clothes their stain of coffee in his shirt"

(OH MY GOD I'M LITERALLY BRAIN FREEZING) He might be forget me so let me just make it cool like nothing has happened.

"Ah yes right! Please come with me Mr. Daniel"

He is following behind me the costume is in company mini bus and is in parking area, Is he recognize me? I have to walk faster. Finally arrived at parking area.

"You can choose whatever you want it might be suit your size"

"How can you know my size?" he finally speaks to me

"Your agency provide us the information of your member" and also you have shoot with white shirt before we have prepare white shirt for you guys"

"Are you sure this is white colour?"

"Heh? I take off my sunglasses I wrongly give him peach colour.

"Sorry I mean this white shirt" I take the other shirt Thump..I make an eye contact with him

"Long time no see Rachel" he told me without flat expression

"Yeah glad to see you, you can change your clothes here I will wait outside" I came outside the bus as fast as I can, sh*t He knows me, a while later the door is open.

"I'm done" He said

"Let's go back they are waiting for you" he following behind me.

We are walking in the same street, same atmosphere , same place the difference is we are stranger now.

Little bit later the shooting finally done and I help Kevin to cleaning up the area and Daniel come to my direction

"Thank you for the shirt" he gives back to me

"No problem"

Kevin comes to me:

"Rachel you don't need to clean up here just waiting in my car we will having a lunch together" Kevin give me his car key

"Daniel thank you for your hardwork" he said to Daniel.

Daniel: "I'm also glad to see you again Rachel"

(wth he is doing?)

Kevin: "Oh you both know each other?

Daniel: "Yes sort of?"

Me: "not really" (and wth I'm doing)

Kevin: "hahaha glad if you know each other you can join us for lunch if you dont't have any schedule"

Daniel: "I have schedule today but I will surely join next time, see you Rachel"

He is going to their mini bus where everyone are waiting for him.

I'm standing to see him off for awhile, look out to the sky and close my eyes...I'm really glad to see you again Daniel the flower is blooming but why mine is whiter?