I ask lola why my mother left me and why my father was not with me and my brothers,don't they love me?

She replied "your mom was never satisfied with the life in this province, she want money and she is ambitious!" said with hatred

she don't love you or else why would she leave and choose to be with that doctor and not be content with your Papa.

Since that day I never ask anyone about my mother and father cause I was in pain when I heard that she don't love me, she leaves me at the near store who is not even our relative just like an abandon cat on the street,my father was a gambler who never came to me I only meet him one time when he thought I will die because of a severe fever that I could not even sit and open my eyes I thought so that I will die that day.

I have to continue my life that no one else know that I have heard what they are talking about the situation of my family I just ignore it. But I promise to my self that I would never do that when I will have but before that I will become successful and I will say to their face "look the one you abandoned is in great situation but I dont need you anymore because I have my own life now", I cried while saying it to my mind.

I went to grade school. Why does they keep asking where my parents are when I dont have? they make me more in pain.

Sherry Sayson?

Present!

the teacher was checking the attendance.

I am not talkative due to lack of confidence how could I have when I have a broken heart as a child.I don't cooperate much to the class cause we have transfer to A city and I have known no one here.

As my 1st grade continue I've seen kids having there mom or dad dropping them at school and fetching them really envious of that but what can I do my lola told me to be independent cause later on she will be gone thats her technique,always when I do bad saying that will make me guilty and obey her immediately , I can cross the road by myself and I can be at home with no one she's a nanny to other house while I'm alone just playing by myself other people praise me for that they say I'm smart and a trustworthy kid than their children, sounds good but should I be glad that I don't have parents too.

If I could just tell parents not to leave your child or just dont ask to have a child when you will just leave them when your relationshio doesn't work. Do you know how hard to be a product of a broken home as if everyday that you could see a complete one you gonna blame yourself for not being good enough that's why your left out theres no day that I have not prayed to God that if He allows to make my mother come back I'll be good girl and If my father will changed I will treat him well but it doesn't happen,though I never question His plan cause I know He has a best plan.

then life goes own I hope they will remember me.But I gone at 2nd grade,3rd and done the sixth grade and graduation how fast, I expect a surprised that maybe they will come and pop out of nowhere I could forgive them cause I realized hating them will make my life shorter you'll have enlargement of the heart or worst, hair will turn white earlier ? then nothing happen I was really discouraged again and again.Did they forgot about me? so sad.

Grandpa died when I was in 5th grade, it was hard to digest at that moment caused he was the father figure of me when my own father was not around, he used to make breakfast for me and my milk when going to school, he loved me more than his own child, he taught me how to read, I remember the title of the selection we read that time " The part of the house" , my aunt said to me that lolo is not like that to them when they were at my aged lolo is not approachable to them but me he is so tender and caring to me, he never allows me get hurt by walking further from our old house it has a wider area the neighborhood is far, walk three mountains before seeing one, when we come to this city , we seldom visit the former place we live in the Province and now that this especial day come I think of him maybe if he's here with me he will be proud even the simple award I have, At our class I rank 6, over all we got the ribbons lower sections will only have that simple awards caused the higher honors will be given to the SMART CURRICULUM and SPED CURRILUM,we are in GENERAL CURRICULUM class so we have the ribbons it's alright with me the most important was we learn from the class not the ribbons or medals, what will I do to it can I sold it to make money it ? surely I can't.

Even so, I should continue to move forward

maybe family is not just a mother and father. I have my grandparents and aunts and uncle treat them as your parents also, Cheer up! said to myself. You should be better and cherrish the people around you do not put more burdens in your heart, enough of your longing to the persons who never see's you as important as their desire and ambitions.

Start walking near the gate in Q City National High School, it's wider than my grade school and many students, all the students in nearby cities went here it's famous though it's a public school and the students here are compitent too just like the students from private schools the only

difference is they are equipped with good materials and facilities while this school

need it but students are well developed even

lacking of that then it's good for me , just go inside and find the class I belong.

"goodmorning Sir! May I ask Sir?

"yes, what is it ?" ( I guess his a teacher)

"uhm, where's the 1st year class, I'm a new enrollee, Sir so I can't "...

"I see, just go to the right side that's the first year classrooms, you'll see the section printed at the doors, you have your section name right?"

"Yes Sir,Chestnut."

"that's the room 2nd to the last. You may go there, the classes will start at 7:45 am hurry up or be late in your 1st day?" ( he smile )

"thank you so much Sir! I'll go now.bye!"

"goodluck!"

"I don't believe in luck with my life story I just believe God has destined people to what was already plan just like this right.? painful maybe but you can't question His work cause He's above all". thought to myself

I met new faces and I've known some of them cause they came from my previous grade school and some are new faces ofcourse this School has cater almost the nearby City thats huge already .

Hello class I'm Marichu Bautista, married and my husband also work here were on the same department which is Filipino, I will be your adviser I hope you will cooperate with me and trust me to help you become more equip than you are today, now it's your turn.Start from right to left introduce yourself and your age .

"Hi I'm Kevin Morillo 12 years old .

"Goodmorning everyone my name is

Kristine Fajardo 12 years "

"Goodmorning please to meet everybody!

I'm Jane Fernandez 12 years "

"Hi everyone Charles Dave Ramerez "

"Goodmorning ! My name is Sherry Sayson

12 years old "

"Hi I'm Mark Evangelista

please to meet you,12 years old this month "

"Same here! very glad to see you guys!

I'm Nathan Velasco from another City,12 years old."

"I'm Arnel Qiambao 12 years old ,please to meet you.!"

** actually we used to say our residence but I just delete it , sorry !**

"please go. to your respective seats and will gonna have our quarterly topic schedules."

The teacher writes on the board.

The other teachers did what our class advisory teachers did and even give us the possible projects we're going to make.

wow! I have a great day so tired why does every subject needs to introduce our names, it's consuming my energy a lot!

while walking home I am talking to myself in thought only or else others will think n I'm mental person.

Those classmates of mine they are really good looking. But Charles stand out the most, and I think his also a good student, thinking of this a test is coming this monthn I need to review I don't want a red mark on my report card thats embarrasing .

I should study well so that in the future I could get a work and support myself and help my grandparents, as the saying says " give back" and I could also find my mother maybe if times allows.

"lola !? Im home!."

"changed your clothes and wash your hands have some snacks here after I'll be out for a moment,huh"

"where are you going, lola?"

"I'll buy something for dinner, you go upstairs and clean yourself."

"uhm..ok lola .."

" I will buy some fish and vegetables for dinner what else is available there ? maybe I buy some eggs too .?" lola murmurs

" la, buy my favorite bread please just two pieces of it is enough !?"

" if I have extra money left after buying the needs,

" okey lola!, I'll prepare the table so .that we could have dinner when you arrive. Aunt maybe here any moment." I said.

"don't go out, wait for your Aunt prepare her things also and make her coffee," lola instruct.

" la, will you not come back? I inquired."

" I will, why you ask?"

" you instruct me like your never comeback again and you worried about your kids. ..hehe!"

" ha! now you know how to joke me, want to be spank?"

" no, lola, I just ask that don't spank me, I'm not a kid anymore and neighbor will hear, it will be embarassing,hehe! goodbye lola! you can buy what you want now! hehe!." get inside quickly or else lola will become a dinosour. Clean myself and eat snacks and ready the table.

Maybe it's natural to the older one to be like that some times naggy , sometimes lovable, sometimes cranky, lola was like that, my uncles and aunts often say that lola was stricter than lolo and thats true, lolo love to spoil me while lola discipline me so much in fear that I will become like my mother who doesn't value family .But I love them both and

respect my Uncles and Aunts they are second father and second mother to me.

I guess it's a choice of a person to leave or to stay, theres nothing wrong to desire best in life ,what makes it wrong when you hurt ones feeling just to get it, but again it's a personal choice.

Do what makes you happy but see to it your not hurting anyone but as you can see you will hurt someone even at the smallest act of yours but be sincere enough to show that your sorry atleast the one you hurt will find you unintentional for your wrongdoing .

I have to do good in my Unit test this is our first test in 1st quarter,goodness! all the subject I think I can pass but math ? maybe hmmp! why does my brain collapsed with that subject ?

Everyone is in serious look this as if they are facing some hurdle hard to pass and there is, right, if theres one who's so chill this time it's the 1st row students gosh, I heard they are honor students in grade school.

And me who stop a year before coming highschool I don't what's with my brain? I forgot what I've study last time, God bless me!! so nervous yeah..but just do your best and God will do the rest that's it!..

everyone! get ready have your sits distance this time . No copying to seatmate.No talking.If you have questions about the questionare just raise hands.Now pass the papers to your back.

Woah..my heart is beating so fast, I flip the test paper it's our math subject this time..and wow! this is my very weakness! I wish I could get atleast the passing score please God or else My aunt will make me read and read the books at our house to study , thats a torture to me.

Give the form of the following quadratic functions.Tell wether it is of the form y\=+/- ax squared

or y\=+/-ax squared +b.

15 items for this

find the quadratic function oh wow!

15 items again

and quadratic equations hold on this is what we call draining the last cells on your brain Sherry don't die here yet there's more! said to myself

then I was exhausted to that math problems, do you find this easy also cause me I really don't like math ..

then we smile to one another after we have done the test this day, we hurry to each homes to rest and recharge for the result tommorrow.

Next day:

we got all the result as expected the 1st row get high scores and the 2nd and the 3rd which I belong is half I got good scores in almost all subjects out of 8.I pass 6 sub.

I will get a retake for the two to make it pass.

Math is 30 out 100.

Social studies 70 out of 80 not bad but still not pass.

Ready for next battle of the brain.

Since grade school I'm not really good at class I can say I'm just doing fine since there is no one to care so much if I have good grades or not my lola doesn't, my aunt said as long I dont have fail grade that is 75 it will be good but then it makes me envy those students whose parents encouraged them to do better for good,that's my inner thoughts only.

I often heard some parents to their child if you get good grades I will buy you Jollibees' snacks or the chicken Joy .And some says they will buy what their child wants.I don't want to be childish but how could a child heart be comforted when she doesn't have emotional support as the others.

then the retake of the exam for the failed students come ..It goes well I pass it this time.

and the rest of my 1st year life ended a good one we bid goodbye to each other maybe will have another set of classmate in the 2nd yr.

I thank my teachers who patiently understand my shortcomings even my attitude as I am not participating any other activities aside from the class activities.Because of financial incapacities .

***As a students not all have thier parents back up there are many of them who doesn't display the struggles they have,I appreciates teachers who really cared for their student like they are relatives to them**

I have summer jobs during vacations so that I could buy my own things to used in my next school year and my aunt will just think for my allowance,I can't wait to finnish school and have my own work or business to help my Aunt with the living expenses, but for now I will do little help by having this work.

I couldn't think of other things some of my age have their lovelife by now but at the thought of my situation for now I just ..it's better to pass for now

**if God allows you to meet the person intended to you then you don't need to find him anywhere at the right time and right place, He will lead him to you.**