" He confides in me , he needs to

 He doesn't feel the need to lie

And my suspiciousness always proved me right ...... Did i deserve it ??

Tell me was it worth it ??

I smell the cinnamon, how could i depend ?

Expect me to defend myself when you Ain't there

Now, his hands are in my hair , his whispers in my head

That's it , I'm BROKEN !

Our love is tainted by the tide

Both sides , both sided of the moon

And our moon is tainted by the tide

Both sides , both sides , both sides

And the moon is a slave to the  tides

Both sides , both sides, both sides "

You sang Celeste's song " both sides of the moon" while driving , again thinking of him....... your best friend KimTaeHyung . You were going home after a long day of work , your thumb taping on the steering wheel softly tp the smooth beat of the song . You knew he'd love this song too , but you didn't dare to sending it to him , cz he was too smart to not understand the special meaning it had to you. Suddenly, the volume of the song dropped and his name appeared on the car's media system.

-" hello ?" You said after pressing the button on the steering wheel to answer the call

-"y/n\~"

-"tae\~" u said and chuckled

-" are you going home ? "

-"yea. I just left the rehabilitation centre

-"what are you doing tonight?  "

-"nothing much . I was either gonna draw or play valorant . What are ur plans? "

-" no plans. I had a message appointment earlier but it got canceled and I don't know what to do. Wanna come over and hang? I got a second computer for you if you want to play . "

-"wait- what do u mean ? "

-"for you ...... as you spend so much time here so u don't have to carry ur laptop all the time . "

-" you didn't had to. Sure i will come over . And by the way you're lucky I don't get offended easily."

-"why what did i say ? " he asked with shock in his voice

-"you know i do massage and you never asked me !"

- "that's not what i want to do when we r hanging . I don't want you to get tired because of me !"

-" but i still end up being tired because of you " you mumbled

-"y/n. Can you massage me please\~\~ " he asked and you could feel the eyeroll and smirk

-okay.....I'll do it.

-"I'm waiting for you then " he replied and giggle

-"see you in 40 . " you said and the call ended

The amount of judgemental look and critism you got for your  " relationships " with him over the years was....... a huge to say the least .

To be continued

A/n - hi guys\~\~\~\~ ! This is my first time of writing so please take care of me and ignore the grammar if any . I will update soon and let me know if you like it :)) ..

See you soon ! Babyee>>>>

Flashback

You met him 5 years ago randomly at a music store. You were looking for a vinyl of one of your fav jazz guitarist -wes montgomery - that you couldn't find online. You hoped this store would have it as you shuffled at the artist names starting from W. you saw a young man looking at the artists starting from M. With the corner of ur eye u kept looking if the vinyl you wanted was there and you spotted it. When he was done looking and moved to the next pile , you got to M section and found the one you wanted , satisfied that you finally were adding it to ur collection until he interrupted ur thoughts.

-" that's a nice one . "

This was the starting of something beautiful as one could say. Months later you began dating. He was wonderful boyfriend , showering you with gifts and affection. Doing everything to keep that wide smile of urs on ur face but after sometime his feeling starting to fade away. For him, it was love but the kind you have for a best friend. He cared for you deeply but it just wasn't exactly it . He was confused himself too. For you , it was different , you thought he was the man you'd marry.

After breakup , you were devastated for a while. Your world collapsed on a cold January morning . Right after you woke up you had a call . He thought he wasn't a good boyfriend and stronger feelings never came from him. He thought you deserved better than that , you were too good for him .

You maintained the friendship even tho u were hurting . But ur heart wouldn't let u stop talking to him. He was ur closet friend , he never hurted you as a friend. You couldn't force him to stay in relation with you anyway. In the end he never cheated or broke up to be with someone else. All of this was happened without anyone knowing on media. He was good at keeping his personal life private ....

One night ,three months after breakup u were feeling a lot better. He was still the same taehyung to you , hugging you out of nowhere and massaging your shoulders whenever u r stressed . You were out of his house,waiting for your taxi app to connect .you didn't really wanted to leave though . You'd be lying if you said you weren't lonely .you might have broken up but whenever you spend time with him you couldn't stop thinking about the things you could have done to him in bed.  And at that night, he was on his sweatpants as usual ,an oversized beige shirt his hair messey . He was looking like he just woke up . This casual look was ur fav and ur biggest weakness. Then you got a text from him .

-"i hope you had fun tonight. Sorry if i was boring :(. "

-"please you are never boring tae."

-"you don't have to go. You should have let me drove you back. I dont like it when u r out this late. You know you can stay here for this night .....

-"I can't "

-"why" he asked

-"...... not when i want things happening...... in ur bed . "

-"i am lonely too y/n ..... i wanted to say this but I didn't because i thought i would be leading you on. "

-"you're not "

-"come up if you still haven't left "

To be continued

-"come up if you still haven't left "

You rang his bell and got up to his apartment again. The elevator door opened and you looked at him as he was leaning against the door. You hesitated getting out of the elevator as his looks were too intimidating and lustful. He wore his shoes sloppily and came to you. 

You gulped hard and ur ***** throbbed as he walked, dragging you out of the elevator and inside of his house.  He closed the door and pinned you against it.  His hands grabbed the side of ur waist and you clenched on his tshirt as he kissed you roughly , lips attacking each other in need.

-"are you sure? I don't want to ruin our friendship "

he asked as he caresses ur cheek and then pecked ur lips gently , but you didn't reply verbally you just attached you lips to his again .....

He stopped caressing ur cheek as his hand was now around your neck , nails digging into ur skin and his lips capturing yours hungrily then moving to place open moth , wet kisses along your jawline and neck. His eyes were staring at ur lips then searching for your orbs. You tilted your head to give him more space but he moved back to ur lips , his hands at the back of your head .

He moved on the couch and made you sit on his lap, never breaking the kiss and you took ur shirt off right away followed by his. His lips moved to the south only to take care of your nipples between his teeth and slowly bit on ur erect bud. Your fingers tangled in his curly hairs and you pressed your core against his already hardened member . He pushed you down on the couch not having more patience.

He lowered his sweatpants while you took off ur leggings and the next thing he did was touch ur lips with his index finger and you licked it , he made you such his fingers . You gladly did as if it was his cock , swirling ur tongue around the fingers they were now full of ur drool . Your eyes hooded , his , dark and sexually frustrated.

His jaw clenched and teeth lightly gritted , he dragged his fingers all over from your lips to ur folds and stroked you a few time and then pumped his member and slowly entered you. Four strong sharp ****** , growling with each other and then he began fucking you fast. Your legs wide open , his hand pushing them back for maximum space . You pulled him down for a heated kiss as if your life was depended on it .

-"**** me harder tae ...... please"

you begged and he chuckled making the whole building hear ur screams.

-"did you missed my cock that much "

He asked with a smirk against ur jaw . You were enjoying it to much to even reply , ur ***** already clenching on him

-"yes...."

you said in the middle of the moans .

And thus began ur " friends with benefits"Thing . You never had any argument about this. No bad blood between you . Both pretty casual , without bringing emotions or being possessive over each other . He told you if you find someone and want to end it was totally fine . But somehow , it always seemed hard for you guys to find someone you really matched with .